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Free Chapter on Sickness

This is an excerpt from my book Doctrines of Demons Part One:

When I was severely sick with a neurological disease and fibromyalgia, I attended a small congregation with a kind pastor. I noticed the pastor often looked at me, my cane, and my wobbly legs strangely. On one occasion, he prayed for me. It was a loud, boisterous prayer. “Lord, get to the root of this sickness, the very root!” I felt as if the root he may have been referring to was my sin. He had suggested more than once to me that sickness can be a spiritual issue. I wondered if he thought the root was something evil in my life like pride, lust, or anger. I remembered the scripture in Timothy about laying hands on the sick and seeing them recover. It also said, “And if they have sinned it shall be forgiven them” (James 5:13-15 KJV).

Many well-known Evangelist and pastors had prayed over me, but I was still suffering horribly. I pondered this and went over a list of people I had forgiven and the prayers I had prayed for HaShem to search me and cleanse me. I cried out to my Father that I knew I had sinned and had things I needed to work on, like most of us do, but still felt awkward in the presence of this pastor. It seemed every time he prayed for me; it was suggested I was responsible for this disease. I felt like I was constantly surrounded by Job’s friends. Of course, I was no Job. My past had its colorful moments. But I had returned to the Father with all my heart, just like the prodigal son, and I knew the Father had run to meet me, kiss me, and clothe me with a new robe. I was now in covenant with my Father.

The following Thursday night Bible study was quite a shock for me. I waddled in on my cane, and there was the pastor with one shoe off. His right foot looked swollen, and he was using a cane. Gout had set in his foot. Had God allowed this to happen for a reason? I was not sure, but I felt quite relieved that a minister I deemed to be very holy could also go through pain. It was confirmation that perhaps it happens to the best of us. He spoke about how his gout had caused him to get still before the Father because he couldn’t go to work and how he had a wonderful time in prayer at home resting. Sickness can be an unusual friend at times.

This chapter will enlighten you about scriptures, and your eyes and mind will be opened to sickness in a manner you may have never been taught. Have you ever wondered who the first person to become sick was written about in the Bible? Job would be the first, and I believe the next person written about was Jacob. After Jacob wrestled with an angel all night, his hip was out of the socket, and he walked with a limp afterward. Indeed, he walked with a limp until the day his sons buried him. Hosea says this about Jacob, “Yea, he had power over the ANGEL and prevailed.” (Hosea 12:4 KJV) Perhaps you have never pondered Jacob’s hip being out of socket? The devil had nothing to do with maiming Jacob. It was an angel! We have been taught that angels only protect us. This one WRESTLED with Jacob and injured him.

Many times the children of Israel were sick or even died because of complaining and bitterness. Snakes sent from God bit them, and the quail they requested came up through their nostrils. The earth even swallowed some. “The Lord sent fiery serpents among the people, and they bit the people; and much people of Israel died” (Numbers 21:6 KJV).

Miriam spoke against Moses, and HaShem struck her with leprosy, and then Moses begged HaShem to restore her, and He did. Yes, over and over again, we see sickness caused by sin. Now we know this is not always the case. Look at Job and all his troubles, and there are others that I will illustrate to you shortly.

When Adam and Eve fell, many believe we were then cursed, and that is when sickness came into existence, but that is not what God’s word says, “cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt, thou eat of it all the days of thy life; thorns and thistles shall it bring forth… (Genesis 3:17-18 KJV)

The Lord Adonai placed a curse upon the ground and the serpent. This curse on the soil is followed by Adam’s son Cain after he kills his brother: “The Lord said, “What have you done? Listen! Your brother’s blood cries out to me from the ground. Now you are under a curse and driven from the ground, which opened its mouth to receive your brother’s blood from your hand. When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you” (Genesis 4:10-12 NIV).

After the flood came and Noah came out of the ark and built an altar to the Lord, that curse on the ground and the earth was broken. “And the Lord smelled a sweet savor; and the Lord said in his heart, I will not again curse the ground anymore for man’s sake; for the imagination of man’s heart is evil from his youth; neither will I smite any more everything living, as I have done” (Genesis 8:21 KJV). So, God knew that we had evil in us, even from our youth, yet He removed the curse on the ground.

Noah knew the curse was removed, and he planted a vineyard afterward. The land would once again be fruitful. Yahweh goes on to say this.  “I will never again destroy every living thing, as I have done. While the earth remains, Seedtime and harvest, and cold and heat, and summer and winter, and day and night shall not cease” (Gen. 8:21-22, ESV). This is a loving God who goes on in chapter nine to say that not just the plants and vegetation would be for food but also for the animals.

“And the Lord will take away from thee all sickness and will put none of the evil diseases of Egypt, which thou knowest, upon thee; but will lay them upon all them that hate thee” (Deut 7:15, KJV). Now, wait a minute, did you catch that? God is going to put sickness on people that hate His people. Wow! That doesn’t mean that every person who gets sick hates Israel. We know that is not the truth. This verse was more than likely speaking about the terrible plagues of boils and other ailments sent to Egypt during Pharaoh’s rebellion against Yahweh.

Sickness wasn’t something we hear Adam or Eve dying from, nor was it something Abraham or Isaac had, but Elisha, one of the mightiest men, died of a disease. “Now Elisha was fallen sick of his sickness whereof he died” (II Kings 13:14, KJV). Elisha raised the dead, made an ax head float, cured Naaman of leprosy, and so forth, yet he died in his sickness. Several missionaries who were with Paul became sick, and Paul was not able to heal them but told the people these men had risked their life for the sake of the Gospel. You can read about Epaphroditus in Philippians, the second chapter, and a man named Trophimus in 2nd Timothy chapter four. “Erastus abode at Corinth; but Trophimus have i left at miletum sick” (II Timothy 4:20, KJV).

Both men were doing work for the Lord, and both men were with Paul. Now Paul was the apostle who could heal the sick with his apron. Why would Paul leave a man sick if he could heal him?  Why then were they not healed? I hear men and women proclaim, “Greater works shall we do,” but Paul left Trophimus sick. Sickness can be challenging to grasp. Paul told Timothy, “Be no longer a drinker of water, but use a little wine for thy stomach’s sake and thine often infirmities” (1 Timothy 5:23, KJV). The water back then wasn’t fit to drink, and the wine helped kill the parasites and bacteria. So, we see wine as a medicine prescribed by the Apostle Paul. He doesn’t say, “Timothy, don’t speak your stomach troubles, don’t even claim them, life, and death are in the power of the tongue. tell the devil where to go.” No, that does not happen, nor will you find one of these great men of God ever prescribing that formula.

Now, I want you to think about medicine differently. 2nd Kings 20 tells a story about a king named Hezekiah. Adonai told him to get his house so that He was taking Hezekiah’s life. Now this man was Godly, he was not a sinner, and when he heard it, he began to weep and argue his case with God.  “In those days was Hezekiah sick unto death. And the prophet Isaiah the son of Amos came to him, and said unto him, thus saith the Lord, Set thine house in order; for thou shalt die, and not live” (II Kings 20:1, KJV). Wow, can you imagine being greeted with this type of Word from God? He was only around forty years old. We all like to hear a prophetic word from the Lord, but not one of such doom. Hezekiah begins to cry out to the Lord and bring before Him how he has served Him with a perfect heart. The Bible says, “He wept sore.”

Before Isaiah left the court of his kingdom, God tells him to go back and listen to the beautiful promise He gives him. “Thus saith the Lord, the God of David thy father, I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears: behold, I will heal thee: on the third day thou shalt go up into the house of the Lord” (II Kings 20:5, KJV).

“And Isaiah said, take a lump of figs. And they took and laid it on the boil, and he recovered” (II Kings 20:7 KJV). Yes, good ole herbs, figs, and plants can cure many diseases.

Adam lived to be nine hundred and thirty years old, now that’s a ripe old age. The Bible says Moses lived to be a hundred and twenty years old and that his eyes were not dim, and his natural force was unabated. He still had the strength of a young man. No sickness there.

Remember, Yeshua healed. However, He didn’t just do it for any reason; there was always a lesson to learn. I hear people say, “Yeshua healed all; however, He didn’t heal everyone entirely.  Yeshua has trouble in His hometown and says, “A prophet is not without honor except in his own country, among his own relatives, and in his own house.” Now He could do no mighty work there, except that He laid His hands on A few sick people and healed them. And He marveled because of their unbelief.” (Mark 6:4-6, KJV). So we have unbelief. We also read about a man at the pool of Bethesda who was healed, but we don’t read anywhere in that story that the many others lying there were healed. Then we have an account after Jesus’ resurrection about a man who was laid at the temple gate for years. “Now a man who was lame from birth was being carried to the temple gate called Beautiful, where he was put every day to beg from those going into the temple courts” (Acts 3:2, NIV). Now Peter and John walk past him and say, “Silver and gold have I none; but such as I have give I thee: In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth rise up and walk”(Acts 3:6 KJV). Now we know Yeshua walked into the temple many times He must have passed this man.

Each time we study healings in the Bible, the process amazes me. Even from the Old Testament, Elijah laid his body upon the Shunammite’s son, who died, and then the boy sneezed seven times and came back to life. You have Naaman, who had to dip seven times in some water far from clean to get his healing. Then you have the priest who would quarantine the sick for seven days before checking their ailments, but how did Yeshua do it? Most asked Him to heal them. The lepers said, “If you will, you can make us clean,” and so Yeshua did. Blind Barnabas cried out all the more for his healing. The people tried to quiet him, but he would not give in. One blind man was healed after Yeshua took some clay or mud and spat on it and placed it on his eyeball. Then the man had to wash his eye in a pool of water. All the way there, the man’s faith was brewing, and he was saying, after I wash, I will see.

The woman whose daughter was vexed with a demon would not relent but had faith. Yeshua never met her daughter, but the Bible says the demon left her the same hour. Yeshua wanted to hear them speak it. He wanted to know that they believed He truly was able to make them whole. Sometimes He told them their sins were forgiven after He healed them, and sometimes He just felt virtue go out of Him, as He did with the woman with the issue of blood. Other times Yeshua didn’t heal them; he waited until they were DEAD, and then He called them to come forth. Yes, He is amazing!

Sickness and disease are mentioned in full detail in the book of Deuteronomy. There is a list of blessings and a list of curses. Most ministers and sheep are very familiar with the scriptures that ring, ‘You will be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath,” but little is discussed the curses and why they come. The 28th chapter of Deuteronomy begins a shortlist of blessing, around twenty or so, and then it goes on to list the sickness and suffering of curses which far outweigh the blessings. These things would fall upon the nation and people who worship idols and do not keep God’s commandments and statutes.

“The LORD will send upon you curses, confusion, and rebuke, in all you undertake to do, until you are destroyed and until you perish quickly, on account of the evil of your deeds, because you have forsaken me. The LORD will make the pestilence cling to you until He has consumed you from the land where you are entering to possess it. The LORD will SMITE YOU with consumption and with fever and with inflammation and with fiery heat and with the sword and with blight and with mildew, and they will pursue you until you perish. The heaven which is over your head shall be bronze, and the earth, which is under you, iron. The LORD will make the rain of your land powder and dust; from heaven it shall come down on you until you are destroyed. The Lord will smite thee with the botch of Egypt and with tumors, scabs and itch, sickness that cannot be healed” (Deuteronomy 28:20-24, 27).

The list is much too long to go over, but here are a few more. “The Lord will smite thee in the knees and in the legs with a sore botch that cannot be healed from the sole of your feet to the top of your head” (Deut. 28:35, KJV). So many forms of sickness and blindness are mentioned that it’s too much to list them all. Also, every sickness and every plague and all the diseases of Egypt He promised to bring until everyone is destroyed. These don’t come from Satan, but from Yahweh and on a people, who are sold out to idolatry.

I hear many people today talk about sickness. They make comments about a lack of faith, wrong confessions, and hidden sin, and they usually blame it on Satan. Most of the time, what I hear does not line up with the word of HaShem. How can we have a miracle—a healing—without sickness and suffering? Today, many ministers think sickness enters due to sin and the devil, but that cannot always be the case. “As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents that he was born blind? “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him”(John 9:1-3).

Moses told the Lord that he was not eloquent or good at making speeches, but God answers him with this, “Who has made man’s mouth? or who makes the dumb or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the Lord?” (Exodus 4:11, KJV).

Many would call blindness, deafness, and paralysis a curse from Satan. But we just read God created it. When we read the New Testament, we find how they prayed for the sick. Today much has been distorted, especially in the Charismatic movement. Let us examine this again.

“As Peter traveled about the country, he went to visit the Lord’s people who lived in Lydda. There he found a man named Aeneas, who was paralyzed and had been bedridden for eight years. “Aeneas,” Peter said to him, “Jesus Christ heals you. Get up and roll up your mat.” Immediately Aeneas got up” (Acts 9:32-34).

Peter, did not ask God to get to the root of his sickness. He did not plead the blood over him or break generational curses. He did not bind anything. Peter did not say, “Aeneas, I’m sorry, but you just don’t have enough faith right now. Study Hebrews chapter eleven for a few more years, and I will be back to lay hands on you.”

King David said this about sickness and suffering, “Before I was afflicted, I went astray: but now have I kept thy word. Thou art good and doest good; teach me thy statutes” (Psalm 119: 67-6, KJV). He goes on in verse seventy-one to say, “It is GOOD for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes. I know, O Lord, that thy judgments are right, and that thou in faithfulness hast afflicted me.”

Job makes a statement in chapter twenty, one about what the wicked man’s life is like. He says, “Their houses are safe from fear. Neither is the rod of God upon them.” He talks about how they spend their days in wealth. King David speaks almost the same word in Psalm 73:3-5, “For I envied the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. They (The Wicked) have no struggles; their bodies are healthy and strong. They are free from common human burdens; they are not plagued by human ills.”

Job makes a comment to his wife after she tells him to curse God and die. He tells her she speaks as a foolish woman would speak. “What? Shall we receive good at the hand of God and not receive evil?” (Job 2:10, KJV).

Sometimes we give Satan too much credit. Occasionally, I think we spend too much time talking to Satan and about him. Many have been taught that every sickness comes from Satan or hidden sin. They never consider that this earth is getting old and that we have polluted it badly with factories, chemicals, landfills, oil spills, and water that is no longer fit to drink. Some believe we need more faith, and that medicine is not of our Father. I have seen countless people go off their medication and become severely sick, especially the mentally ill.

Sickness in a positive form is often mentioned in the Bible. If you read the parable of the great supper, you will find that the healthy, wealthy, and wise in their own eyes, did not have time to come to this great feast of the Lord. “The servant returned and told his master what they had said. His master was furious and said, ‘Go quickly into the streets and alleys of the town and invite the poor, the crippled, the blind, and the lame” (Luke 14:21, NLT).

Yes, the wealthy, busy people of the world rejected his invitation but not the sick and the poor. Why were they so willing to come? Sickness and poverty can humble a person significantly and cause them to realize that they need a Savior.

A man named Paul was one of the greatest apostles of all time. Paul didn’t start out that way. In fact, he was one of the persecutors of the church. He was one of the main ones who helped stone the Christians and threw them into prison. And the Bible says that as he was on his way to Damascus, he saw a bright light shining down from heaven, and he heard a voice, and he fell down on the ground. “And Saul arose from the earth; and when his eyes were opened, he saw no man: but they led him by the hand, and brought him into Damascus. And he was three days without sight, and neither did eat nor drink” (Acts 9:6-9, KJV)

So we have just read how HaShem struck Saul (Paul) blind for three days. He got Saul’s attention. By striking him with blindness, he was able to humble Paul. We even read here how he fasted and prayed during those three days. We also hear the voice of the Lord say that he will show Paul how greatly he must suffer for His name’s sake. Now Paul went on to influence Christian thinking in a way no other apostle could. He wrote at least seven books in the New Testament, books on bringing praise and glory to God. Through his suffering and famine type circumstances, he became a humble Apostle. He also said he was given a thorn in his flesh, a messenger from Satan to buffet him. He asked God three times to take it away, but God said, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” (II Corinthians 12:9).

Sickness may be something you pay more attention to in the scripture now. Our bodies are supposed to get old. Paul said, “Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day” (II Corinthians 4:16).

“Remember, “Now Elisha was fallen sick of his sickness whereof he died” (II Kings 13:14). Years later, a dead man was thrown into his tomb, landed on his bones, and was revived. He came back to life and stood upon his feet! He might have died of sickness and disease, but God’s word was still shut up in his bones, and his bones brought forth life.

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Our nation–Job’s Wisdom


If you follow my Tekoa page or Facebook page, this blog is a couple of posts I’ve combined with a passage from an upcoming book on America and the wisdom of Job for our nation. I still have no working title but do feel it will be a book for a season that looks bleak to bring hope. If you already have read my post, scroll down to the free chapter. Blessings and Happy Sukkot!

The first post is from 9/30/2020:

I have read many comments and posts concerning the debate last night. I’ve also been reading many posts concerning The Return. Some were very harsh on the D.C. gathering– warning of the anti-messiah, freemasons, being too patriotic and a false revival, false repentance, etc. The most heartbreaking words were toward a messianic Rabbi Who spoke with great humility and said a prayer as close to Ezra’s or Nehemiah’s as I have ever heard. His prayer During The Return caused both my husband and I to get on our faces and weep. Does that mean we agreed with all who spoke or everything said? No.
Rabbi Kohn was sent years ago to a pastor who had cheated on his wife, embezzled money, and was put in prison for a season. With humbleness, I have watched him sit with Christmas trees behind him and teach the Father’s Feast days. It might not look right to some, but I’m sure taking a wife of harlotry (Hosea) or walking naked And barefoot (Isaiah), or making a city out of pots and pans didn’t look right either.

During the Day of Atonement, we ask for mercy for our sins, and we desire His mercy, but do we have compassion and mercy for others? Do we fear to slander men who are trying to do what they can to spread the Gospel? Do we have a Jonah attitude, or do we accept that our Father is merciful, slow to anger, and full of compassion, and we are grass? Who are we that He is mindful of us? Are we screaming to be heard, and spreading fear, instead of becoming one? Are we sick from the top of the head to the soles of the feet?
Are we the religious police who must draw men to ourselves as if we are the only ones capable of teaching the truth or capable of warning them of falseness? Again, heartbreaking. If it were up to some, they would be the only teacher anyone was allowed to be taught by.

There are many verses written ages ago warning of false messiahs that had come and will come. John said,
“Children, it is the last hour; and just as you have heard that the antichrist is coming, so now many antichrists have appeared.”
There is another verse that I’m reminded of:
“At that time, if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Christ!’ or ‘There He is!’ do not believe it.” Matthew 24:23.
There is also an anti-messiah spirit, and it can work through any of us.
Two men stood up to speak last night, and my heart broke for both of them. Why? Because when men like Ezra speak, people fall on their faces and repent. When men argue and talk over one another, it’s hard to listen. These men need prayer. Humility is refreshing. A heart that’s for a nation that is burning, being destroyed from the inside and full of bloodshed and unrest needs more than make America great again; it needs America to fear a King who is coming again to set up an everlasting kingdom. How will He rule?

“And He will delight in the fear of the LORD, And He will not judge by what His eyes see, Nor make a decision by what His ears hear; But with righteousness, He will judge the poor, And decide with fairness for the afflicted of the earth; And He will strike the earth with the rod of His mouth, And with the breath of His lips He will slay the wicked.” (Isaiah 11:3-4).

This nation needs repentance. I saw some of that at the Return. Maybe it was patriotic, and maybe there were issues, but I was pleased to hear shofars and songs by Paul Wilbur exalting The Great Elohiym. Our nation needs revival, but many are against even speaking the word revival because it’s not Torah enough. Because great tribulation and a day of darkness are coming–this is true, but out of great darkness comes great light.

And I’m hearing from friends who are preaching in Streets and parks and baptizing people. Ministers are going to the streets and loving the angry and broken to weeping. And yet many are slandering that they aren’t using the correct name of His Son, Yeshua. I say, know your audience. I say do what you can with what you have. A man in Acts didn’t have all the story, but he was preaching boldly, and then the Father sent helpers.

“Now a Jew named Apollos, an Alexandrian by birth, an eloquent man, came to Ephesus; and he was mighty in the Scriptures. This man had been instructed in the way of the Lord; and being fervent in spirit, he was speaking and teaching accurately the things concerning Jesus, being acquainted only with the baptism of John; and he began to speak out boldly in the synagogue. But when Priscilla and Aquila heard him, they took him aside and explained to him the way of God more accurately. (Acts 18:24-26).
Abba is faithful to send humble servants to help those spreading all the light they have with boldness.

These two men, Trump and Biden, who stood debating Will one day bow their knees to a higher power. Yes, one day, every knee will bow, even those who sow discord among brethren. I’m starting to think fasting words are more powerful than food, especially if they are full of finger-pointing and negativity and slander.
Men of flesh cannot come up with words or actions that pierce hearts or change the people of a nation without being engrossed in His Word and fearing Him–Him who places men on thrones and removes them. No amount of money, lost votes thrown in trash cans, corrupt media, or any other deceit can stop the Father from placing which man he wants on the thrown. And He may not want the one you are picking for His own reasons. He sent His servant Nebuchadnezzar. He erected gallows for Haman by Haman. I’m praying for them both. I’m praying for our nation. No matter who is elected, if you say, “Well, our nation is going to collapse now. We are finished.” Then you are placing trust in one of these men and not the one in control. Sometimes our temples need to be destroyed so He can rebuild them.

Ezra 9:
“O my God, I am ashamed and embarrassed to lift up my face to You, my God, because our iniquities are higher than our heads, and our guilt has reached the heavens. From the days of our fathers to this day, our guilt has been great. Because of our iniquities, we and our kings and priests have been delivered into the hands of the kings of the earth and put to the sword and captivity, to pillage and humiliation, as we are this day.
But now, for a brief moment, grace has come from the LORD our God to preserve for us a remnant and to give us a stake in His holy place. Even in our bondage, our God has given us new life and light to our eyes. Though we are slaves, our God has not forsaken us in our bondage, but He has extended to us grace in the sight of the kings of Persia, giving us new life to rebuild the house of our God and repair its ruins, and giving us a wall of protection in Judah and Jerusalem.
And now, our God, what can we say after this? For we have forsaken the commandments that You gave through Your servants the prophets, saying: ‘The land that you are entering to possess is a land polluted by the impurity of its peoples and the abominations with which they have filled it from end to end. Now, therefore, do not give your daughters in marriage to their sons or take their daughters for your sons. Never seek their peace or prosperity, so that you may be strong and may eat the good things of the land, leaving it as an inheritance to your sons forever.’
After all that has come upon us because of our evil deeds and our great guilt (though You, our God, have punished us less than our iniquities deserve and have given us such a remnant as this), shall we again break Your commandments and intermarry with the peoples who commit these abominations? Would You not become so angry with us as to wipe us out, leaving no remnant or survivor?
O LORD, God of Israel, You are righteous! For we remain this day as a remnant. Here we are before You in our guilt, though, because of it no one can stand before You.”


The second post is from 10/1/2020:

More thoughts this morning:
Pull up a debate from the 40s to the ’80s and compare it to today. It’s much more civilized. Reagan was even able to cause Mondale to laugh at his humor directed at him. But we’ve become so desensitized to our words and how we speak about people, we may not hear the full assassination of our words. Did Elohim give these men running for office life? Is His Breath in their lungs? Satan has created nothing, matter a fact, he was created by HaShem for His purposes. Was not Biden, as well as Trump, created in their mother’s womb? Will they not stand as you and I before the Judge of all the earth one day? Do they appear to be full of knowledge and wisdom from on High? Do they look strong and righteous having the ability to tame their tongues? Do their words like Job mentions, cause men to wait and listen for words that were as rain to parched souls? The wisdom that causes silence–

“To me they listened and waited,
And kept silent for my counsel.

“After my words they did not speak again,
And my speech dropped on them.

“They waited for me as for the rain,
And opened their mouth as for the spring rain.” (Job 29:21-32).
Possibly, we were allowed to see the opposite during the debate so we can get a better understanding of how frail and incapable men who have but a breath in their nostrils are of healing any type of pestilence and unrest on the earth.

I have to wonder what it would be like today to have such a job as president of the U.S. when our nation is burning. Our streets are full of violence and pestilence, and our economy, due to COVID, has suffered dramatically.
If someone gave me the job tomorrow, I wouldn’t want it. I’d lay prostrate in fear and ask as Solomon for wisdom. We need to pray for our president.
Many go to excellent links to make their candidates appear more worthy, more righteous, and more concerned about the people of America, but more than 2.2 million acres have burned in the state of California alone–Fires started by wicked men. The damage from riots and looting across the U.S. is estimated to be the costliest in insurance history – between $1 billion and $2 billion or more. Due to riots, thousands have been arrested, and many deaths have occurred, both to police and civilians. We wear a mask, but our mouths spew evil, and we wash, but we aren’t clean.
Can a fleshly man who puts his pants on like you and I fix evil and lawlessness? Can a fleshly man heal hearts and bring justice and mercy and shalom? Can a man or woman with any skin tone under the heavens fix America? I think we all know the answer to that but they can stand for LIFE, and put out fires, both internally and externally.
When other nations look at our streets on the news, what do they think? Looting, burning, violence, bloodshed, drugs, sex trafficking, child abuse, and cursing… evil upon evil. Hatred and rage and unrest. The earth is Crying Out.
I know Babylon is a harlot system, but One passage comes to mind– in one-hour judgment comes upon her.

“The kings of the earth who committed fornication and lived luxuriously with her will weep and lament for her, when they see the smoke of her burning, standing at a distance for fear of her torment, saying, ‘Alas, alas, that great city Babylon, that mighty city! For in one hour, your judgment has come.’
“And the merchants of the earth will weep and mourn over her, for no one buys their merchandise any more: merchandise of gold and silver, precious stones and pearls, fine linen and purple, silk and scarlet, every kind of citron wood, every kind of object of ivory, every kind of object of most precious wood, bronze, iron, and marble; and cinnamon and incense, fragrant oil and frankincense, wine and oil, fine flour and wheat, cattle and sheep, horses and chariots, and bodies and souls of men. The fruit that your soul longed for has gone from you, and all the things which are rich and splendid have gone from you, and you shall find them no more at all. The merchants of these things, who became rich by her, will stand at a distance for fear of her torment, weeping and wailing, and saying, ‘Alas, alas, that great city that was clothed in fine linen, purple, and scarlet, and adorned with gold and precious stones and pearls! For in one hour, such great riches came to nothing.’ Every shipmaster, all who travel by ship, sailors, and as many as trade on the sea, stood at a distance 18and cried out when they saw the smoke of her burning, saying, ‘What is like this great city?’
“They threw dust on their heads and cried out, weeping and wailing, and saying, ‘Alas, alas, that great city, in which all who had ships on the sea became rich by her wealth! For in one hour, she is made desolate.” Revelation 18:9–.

Things are coming upon us that we may not be prepared for. May it cause us to look UP and not at men to save us. Egypt cannot save us. No amount of wealth, power, or men with enticing words can save us. Men who have to read from an iPad because their cognitive mental capacity is weak. Men who cannot stop talking over other men because, like us, they have no idea how to be silent and tame their fire lit tongue for 2 minutes. Oh, that humility would fall on a nation. From the top of the head to the souls of the feet.

While this debate goes on and we draw closer to the election, I pray that we look to the Maker of Heaven and earth with humility and repentance. I pray that we do not place our hope or trust in men. I’m praying the Father gets our attention to the point we see our frailty and sickness and try to be lights to all people, even those we disagree with. This may not be our home, but it’s our home now, and the Earth is the Lords Adonai. He is not going to throw it away. We are not going to be taken out in a rapture. Where are the ones who were taken in scripture? Who are they?
“There will be two women grinding at the same place; one will be taken and the other will be left. “Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other will be left.” And answering they said to Him, “Where, Lord?” And He said to them, “Where the body is, there also the vultures will be gathered.” Luke 17:35-37 NASB.
Vultures gather to eat the flesh of the dead just as they gathered in Noah’s day after the flood. We will be left not taken, and
One day He will restore this earth to its proper condition. We go back to the garden.

Have a wonderful Sukkot, and as we celebrate the birth of the Messiah remember these words and who we place our trust in. (John 7:37-38) Now on the last day of the festival, Hoshana Rabbah, Yeshua, stood and cried out, “If anyone is thirsty, let him keep coming to me and drinking! Whoever puts his trust in me, as the Scripture says, rivers of living water will flow from his inmost being!”

Before I get to the excerpt from the upcoming release, Please pray for me as I have several books being edited and I need to know which one is to come forth first and also if the Father would want a publisher to take over. It is hard and tedious to pay for editing, make changes and new editions, and market. We also want to make sure it is His Word’s and anointing flowing through this pen and not just my own thoughts.

3  Job



“Behold, He restrains the waters, and they dry up;” (Job 12:15).


During the time of the Great Depression, the people waited for rain.  They walked outside and searched for clouds with weary eyes. Their tongues stuck to the roof of their mouths. Their eyes stung from the dust that pricked their irises and made them walk like blind men. Dust kicked up and filled their parched throats. They prayed for rain, they sighed for rain, and they threw their hands up in the air for rain, but not a drop fell.

Many Americans are praying for peace, healing, justice, and order. Rioters in Minneapolis caused over 55 million in damages alone. As our nation searches for a drop of His Spiritual rain, none falls. I know that Adonai can open the windows of heaven and pour out His healing balm, but that will require us to take action through repentance and change. Many are expressing that it feels as if God has removed His strong right Arm of protection.  Job felt like this. He sat in the dust and scraped his oozing sores with broken pottery. His own wife told him to curse Adonai and die. But if you want to know the secret to an abundant life, Job can tell you.  There are genuine riches and gold that cannot be bought with money.

This man, Job, had a great life before his destruction hit.  When he went out to the gate of the city, young men fled, older men stood, princes, refrained from talking, and nobles held their peace.  Men kept silent at this man’s counsel, and after he spoke, they were left in awe.  We know Job, though, for the time of famine he went through. Whether Job was a real person or a fable, this man went through a Great Depression way before the nation of America existed. This man went through the death of his children and lost his joy and all he had worked for in a moment.


In Job chapter 29, Job talks about the days before his destruction.  He describes a life some have dreamed about, but I believe it can be attainable.  Many of the answers to our financial, spiritual, and physical needs are written in this one chapter. Job is reminiscing about his past, the life he had lived under the protection of the Almighty.  While reading these words, carefully meditate on the richness.


“And Job again took up his discourse and said,

“Oh that I were as in months gone by,

As in the days when God watched over me;


When His lamp shone over my head,

And by His light I walked through darkness;


As I was in the prime of my days,

When the friendship of God was over my tent;


When the Almighty was yet with me,

And my children were around me;


When my steps were bathed in butter,

And the rock poured out for me streams of oil!


“When I went out to the gate of the city,

When I took my seat in the square,


The young men saw me and hid themselves,

And the old men arose and stood.


“The princes stopped talking

And put their hands on their mouths;


The voice of the nobles was hushed,

And their tongue stuck to their palate.


“For when the ear heard, it called me blessed,

And when the eye saw, it gave witness of me,” (Job 29:1-11, NASB)


When was the last time we had princes and nobles astounded at our words?  Has America ever washed her steps with butter?  Butter and oil were symbols of wealth, luxury, and the anointing.  And how often do we see men such as Job speak in front of the leaders of our nation?  How did Job ((Iyov) get this esteem —this wealth?  How did he get this prestige and favor from HaShem and man?  The next verses hold the answers.


“Because I (Job-Iyyob) delivered the poor that cried, and the fatherless, and him that had none to help him, the blessings of him that was ready to perish came upon me: And I caused the widow’s heart to sing for joy. I put on righteousness, and it clothed me. My judgment was a robe and a diadem. I was eyes to the blind, and feet was I to the lame: And the cause which I knew not I searched out” (Job 29:12-14, KJB).


How can a nation and people be feet to the lame?  We carry them.  How can a nation be eyes to the blind?  This comes when we see their sorrow and direct them with wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. Why would a widow’s heart be filled with joy?  If her husband just passed away and she has children to feed, and then Job shows up at her door, she knows he is going to take care of them. He will feed her children and clothe them! He puts on righteousness as a garment because he is busy doing righteous acts. These are robes of the noble.

The Bible states in Job 29:13, that when the people died, they left their possessions to Job. Why would people leave their belongings and property to this man and not their relatives?  Job helped them during their darkest hour when they had no rain.  Job came when no one else would. He did much for others, even to his hurt. Job does not stop there.  He says, “I broke the jaws of the wicked, and plucked the spoil out of his teeth” (29:17).


“Unto me, men gave ear, and waited, and kept silent at my counsel. After my words, they spake not again; and my speech dropped upon them. And they waited for me as the rain: and they opened their mouth wide as for the latter rain. If I laughed on them, they believed it not; and the light of my countenance they cast not down. I chose out their way and sat chief, and dwelt as a king in the army, as one that comforteth the mourners” (Job 29:21-25, KJB).


Did you notice how very similar this verse is to the one in Deuteronomy that we read earlier?


Have you ever met someone who was known for his or her greatness? Maybe it was an actor, sports star, author, or righteous leader.  Whoever it was, you could not wait to tell your friends and family about meeting the person.  Job was a celebrity in this way.  He said if he laughed with them, they thought it was too good to be true that they were cutting up and having a good time with none other than Job.  Job was so blessed that his presence and his words were like rain to the people around him. We will look at this rain with better vision in our next chapter.


“And they waited for me as the rain and they opened their mouth wide as for the latter rain” (Job 29:23). KJB


Check out my devotional Thirsting for Water for the New Year.

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Prophetic Word for Elul–(Is it Evening?)

silhouette of grass under cloudy sky during orange sunset

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While studying and meditating during the month of Elul, I heard in my spirit that evening was here—that darkness comes before light.
Now, this is something most know if they have ever read Genesis/ Bereshit Chapter one. “The earth was formless and void, and darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the waters” (Genesis 1:2). It is after this sentence that Adonai said, “Let there be light and there was light. This light came before the sun, moon, and the stars. The sages call it as Ohr Ha-Ganuz, “the Hidden Light.” This light will shine again at a future time.
“And the city has no need of the sun or of the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God has illumined it, and its lamp is the Lamb. The nations will walk by its light, and the kings of the earth will bring their glory into it. In the daytime (for there will be no night there)” Rev. 21:23-25.
Our Messiah is light. The Torah is light. The Torah is a lamp for our feet, but this is not what the Father was directing me to search out. It was evening. Then it was dark.
The evening comes before darkness. Darkness before light. When will it be pitch black? When will the earth and the people feel such darkness? “Then the LORD said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand toward the sky, that there may be darkness over the land of Egypt, even a darkness which may be felt” (Exodus 10:21). There are multiple ways to feel darkness. Anyone who has lived very long upon this earth has felt some form of darkness.
One of my favorite books is called Night by Elie Wiesel. In one portion of the book, Wiesel tells a story that has never left me. This story makes all the darkness I’ve experienced seem lighter in comparison. One portion of his account of the holocaust recounts the hanging of a young child. Wiesel hears a man asking, “Where is God? For God’s sake, where is God?” Elie Wiesel writes:
“And from within me, I heard a voice answer: “Where is He? This is where—hanging here from this gallows.” His most potent passage paints a scene so black one can see the chimneys’ blackened smoke and smell the horrors of death.
“Never shall I forget that night, the first night in camp, that turned my life into one long night seven times sealed.
Never shall I forget the smoke.
Never shall I forget the small faces of children whose bodies I saw transformed into smoke under a silent sky. Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever. Never shall I forget the nocturnal silence that deprived me for all eternity of the desire to live. Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to ashes. Never shall I forget those things, even were I condemned to live as long as God Himself.
Elie Wiesel, Night
During this darkness, a few in the camp put God on trial. Elie said, “It happened at night; there were just three people. At the end of the trial, they used the word chayav, rather than ‘guilty’. It means ‘He owes us something’. Then we went to pray.”

Night (Night Trilogy) by [Elie Wiesel, Marion Wiesel]
Elie continued to pray to HaShem His God there in the camps. He continued to keep the Sabbath as best as he could. He risked his life to put on tefillin that were smuggled in. In the “night,” he still prayed the Shema. Jesus/ Yeshua said this was the greatest commandment.
“Which commandment is the most important of all?”
Jesus replied, “This is the most important: ‘Hear O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is One. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ h No other commandment is greater than these.” (Mark 12:29-31—Deut. 6:1-19).
Elie Wiesel experienced evening before night. It was gradual. The sun was setting, but he could still see light. Things got a little darker before too long and a little more until he was crammed in a cattle car with dead bodies and a bucket for waste. Evening is something I want you to meditate on. Evening means “the mixing.” It is a mixing of darkness and light often used to describe people. Our prayers begin in the evening. (Psalm 55:17) “Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice.”
When Noah landed and let the black raven out, it flew back and forth. Much flesh was awaiting its beak, not so with the dove.
“And behold, the dove returned to him in the evening with a freshly plucked olive leaf in her beak. So Noah knew that the waters had receded from the earth” (Genesis 8:11).
May we return to Him in the evening like the dove–to the Ark of His covenant. Returning with Israel freshly plucked and in our beaks (mouths), white (pure), and hovering over the waters. The dove returned in the evening. Evening can cause many to return to Him. Evening comes before darkness, and darkness comes before the Messiah. The day of the Lord Adonai is said to be a day of darkness and not light.
“Blow the ram’s horn in Zion;

Sound the alarm on My holy mountain!

Let all who dwell in the land tremble,

for the Day of the LORD is coming;

indeed, it is near—

a day of darkness and gloom,

a day of clouds and blackness” (Joel 2:1-2).
Evening has its own mysteries. Many things in scripture happened in the evening, not in the morning.
(Gen.19:1) And there came two angels to Sodom in the evening. . .
Violent men came out in the evening in Sodom, but so did Abba’s two messengers who may also represent the (Torah/prophets—Moses and Elijah).
Wicked men who wanted to sodomize the messengers came forth in the evening. Then something happens that is very prophetic in nature. “But the men (messengers/ angels) inside reached out, pulled Lot into the house with them, and shut the door. And they struck the men at the entrance, young and old, with blindness, so that they wearied themselves trying to find the door” (Gen. 19:10). Yeshua is the door. These wicked men cannot find the door due to their darkness. Yeshua said, “But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!” (Matt. 6:23). The Father shut the door of the Ark during the flood. “Then the LORD shut him in” (Gen. 7:16). The Father did not remove Noah and his family from the storm; he protected them in the darkness. But what was happening at evening? What did evening look like for Noah and his family? Was he busy working even in the dim light?
“…the righteous Noah rebuked them, urging, ‘Repent; for if not, the Holy One, blessed be He, will bring a deluge upon you and cause your bodies to float upon the water like gourds, as it is written, He is light [i.e., floats] upon the waters. Moreover, ye shall be taken as a curse for all future generations, as it is written, their portion is cursed’ in the earth.” (Babylonian Talmud, Sanhedrin 108a).
Not only was it evening during Noah’s day, but it was evening during Abraham’s day in one location, Sodom and Gomorrah.
“But the same day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven, and destroyed them all. Even thus shall it be in the day when the Son of man is revealed” (Matt. 17:29-30).
There is a woman that comes out in pitch darkness.
“For at the window of my house I looked through my lattice, And I saw among the simple, I perceived among the youths, A young man lacking heart, Passing through the street near her corner; And he went the way to her house. In the twilight, in the evening, In the black and dark night. And look, a woman met him, Dressed like a whore, With a hidden heart” (Proverbs 7:6-9, ISR).

woman holding string lights
The fall feasts are upon us. They come just as it gets darker outside. Not only does evening come swiftly, but the darkness in our streets filled with unrest also seems to grow more significant with darkness.
Darkness is also a word used to describe protection and beauty, as magnificent as a black stallion—a black panther slinking through the jungle, A black butterfly, or a black sapphire ring. Darkness is a womb protected by water. Darkness represents being hidden. Darkness is when the beast comes out of the jungle, the fields, the forest, stalking, and searching to devour something in the darkness. When someone is robbed, shot, or sexually assaulted, if it happens in the daytime, we proclaim, “They did it in broad daylight!” Yet, Adonai dwells in thick darkness.
“The LORD has said that he would dwell in thick darkness” (I Kings 8:12).
“He made darkness His hiding place, His canopy around Him, Darkness of waters, thick clouds of the skies” (Psalm 18:11).
`araphel is Strong’s H6205: thick darkness (8x), darkness (3x), gross darkness (2x), dark cloud (1x), dark (1x). (Exo 20:21) “And the people stood afar off, and Moses drew near unto the thick darkness H6205 where God was.”
“He bowed the heavens also, and came down.

With thick darkness under His feet.

“And He rode on a cherub and flew;
And He appeared on the wings of the wind.

“And He made darkness canopies around Him,
A mass of waters, thick clouds of the sky.

“From the brightness before Him
Coals of fire were kindled.

“The LORD thundered from heaven,
And the Most High uttered His voice.

“And He sent out arrows, and scattered them,
Lightning, and routed them” (II Samuel 22:10-15).

Could the evening be approaching our timeline spiritually? Evening comes before the Son/ sun. Evening comes bringing Jacob’s trouble and great tribulation before we see the sign of the Son of Man. Evening comes before wars, rumors of wars, before pestilence, and famine. Evening and “mourning” come before death and destruction. Evening comes, and the world grows cold and dark. Thieves break in and steal in the evening. They wear black. Death is draped in black clothing, black scarves, and black caskets driven in black hearses. But evening is not pitch black. Evening still has some light to work with. We are told to work while it is still light because the fall feasts represent the time of our Messiah’s return, and this occurs before winter brings death.

“It will come about in that day,” declares the Lord GOD,
“That I will make the sun go down at noon
And make the earth dark in broad daylight.

“Then I will turn your festivals into mourning
And all your songs into lamentation;
And I will bring sackcloth on everyone’s loins
And baldness on every head.
And I will make it like a time of mourning for an only son,
And the end of it will be like a bitter day” (Amos 8:9-10).

In Zechariah 7, we see a glimpse of the return of the Messiah. All the nations will gather against Jerusalem to battle. On that day, the Lord Adonai will fight against those nations, and the Messiah’s feet will stand on the mount of olives, and the mount of olives will be split in half. Please meditate on the last passage, verse 7 below.
“In that day His feet will stand on the Mount of Olives, which is in front of Jerusalem on the east; and the Mount of Olives will be split in its middle from east to west by a very large valley, so that half of the mountain will move toward the north and the other half toward the south. You will flee by the valley of My mountains, for the valley of the mountains will reach to Azel; yes, you will flee just as you fled before the earthquake in the days of Uzziah king of Judah. Then the LORD, my God, will come, and all the holy ones with Him!
In that day, there will be no light; the luminaries will dwindle. For it will be a unique day which is known to the LORD, neither day nor night, but it will come about that at evening time there will be light” (Zechariah 7:4-7).
In the evening, there will be LIGHT.

left human palm close-up photography
Back in March, before Pesach/ Passover, the Father spoke to me and said the Spirit of Elijah is here. Invite him in and open the door for he is here.
Now, He is telling me it’s evening. The evening can last a long time–years even in Adonai’s timeframe since a day to the Lord is a 1,000 years and 1,000 years is a day (2 Peter 3:8). It takes anywhere from 70 to 1,000 minutes to become dark after evening. 7 is completion. 1,000-year reign with our King. Symbols are everywhere.
Evening may be swiftly approaching when things get darker on the earth. I’m not date setting, but even the people in Noah’s day had a timeline.
A few years ago, I had a dream. During this time, my husband and I led up meetings and Feast gatherings at a city building. In my dream, we were in the building, and a couple came in with a baby in a car seat. A blanket partially covered the baby, and it was a boy. I greeted the mother and asked her what she had named her son. She said Methuselah. I just looked at her with large eyes. His name means, “When He Is Dead It Shall Be Sent, Man Of A Javelin.” When he died, the flood came and destroyed the earth. His name and life were a warning. Man doesn’t live as long these days as they did in his day. I am thinking it is evening, but evening also has its powerful symbols.
I want to shift this message to an uplifting one and close with powerful verses that are beautifully filled with His Holy Spirit that hovered over the water in the darkness, just like the dove Noah released.
“As evening approached, he made the camels kneel down near the well outside the town at the time when the women went out to draw water” (Genesis 24:11). Women are drawing water right now. This is Abraham’s servant Eliezer. He is a foreigner and younger. He is going to find a bride for Isaac (laughter) at evening, and his name means Yah is my help or helper. The Holy Spirit is called a helper. Eliezer also means Yahweh’s ten. Can you see the Holy Spirit coming in the evening and women drinking from the wellsprings of life? “The Lord gives the word; the women who announce the news are a great host: (Psalm 68:11, ESV).
Eliezer came for Rebbeca and adorned her with jewels/ gifts. This is the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit). He is the giver of gifts and fine jewels, not Tiffany and Co.

In John 8:12, Yeshua spoke to the people and said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

Ephesians 5:8-9 says, “For once you were full of darkness, but now you have light from the Lord. So live as people of light! For this light within you produces only what is good and right and true.”

There is a Kingdom of darkness and a Kingdom of Light. (Isa 60:2). Darkness may cover the earth, but Adonai shall arise, and His glory will be upon us. Can you picture it?
“For, behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness ( ערפל araphel -H6205) the people: but the LORD shall arise upon thee, and his glory shall be seen upon thee.”
“HEBREW WORD OF THE DAY: Darkness (ערפל araphel, Strong’s #6205): There are two words in the Hebrew translated as darkness. The most common is the word hhoshekh [str:2822] and means “darkness.” The other word is “araphel” and has a meaning that is something more than just darkness. In Exodus 20:21, we read, “And Moses approached the “araphel” where God was.” This darkness is a different type of darkness. It may be alluded to in Exodus 10:21, which mentions the “plague of darkness” (hhoshekh) that could be felt. We often associate darkness with evil, and light with good, but, interestingly, most of the times when God appears, it is in this araphel, such as we saw in Exodus 20:21 but also in 2 Samuel 22:10, 1 Kings 8:12, Job 22:13, Psalm 97:2 and other places.” Jeff Benner.

Jeff Benner has one more nugget that I found worth sharing. It’s the definition of the word shine.

Shine–The word ‘or, as a noun means “light” and as a verb, it means to “give light” or “shine.” It is also related to the idea of bringing order, in the same way, that you bring about order in the darkness when you turn on the lights.

Strong’s: #216

May He appear, and may His Spirit hover over the water. May light spring forth out of the darkness and heal His people. May we be pockets of light all over this earth, shining.

Posted in Evil eye, Frozen body, spirituality, Tekoa Manning, TM

Moses Face, the Snow Queen, and the Evil Eye

The “evil eye,” ayin ha’ra in Hebrew, is the idea that a person or supernatural being can bewitch or injure an individual merely by looking at them. Have you ever looked at someone with a stink eye? Have you ever been bewitched by someone?

When I was around 16 years old, I went to the drive-in (showing my age) with my boyfriend. He had a mustang —1960’s, and as I went to hop up on the hood to watch the movie with him, I lost my balance, falling into a rusty car antenna that was pushed down and missing the top mount. Blood began to pour out of my eye, and I spent a few days in the hospital. With numbing medicine and tweezers, they began to pluck the metal out of my eyeball and rinse it in a solution.  Once released from the hospital, I wore a patch on one eye like a pirate. Arrr, Mate! I had some damage in the eye and, for many years, only needed one contact lens. But as a teenager, I didn’t worry much about my eye. I thought I was invincible. I’m thankful that I didn’t lose my sight, but spiritually we can be blind in our right eye and not know it.

Many people at the drive-in that night went to high school with me; they saw something different. By the time I returned to school, the gossip had gone full circle.

“I heard you got beat up at the drive-in and stabbed in the eye!” “Oh, Tekoa, I heard so and so cornered you in the bathroom and punched you in the eye, and her ring cut your eyeball.” The stories went on and on, each with different settings. I remembered when I went to the bathroom to see if my eye was only running with water. I was surprised to see all the blood. One girl was standing at the sink next to me. She looked at me and said, who did this to you?” Sadly, many times we get off balance and do things to ourselves, but my point in sharing this story is that we often judge with an evil eye. We don’t have all of the story or information.

Today, I think back to that night and pray for a good eye that has an antenna that reaches the heavens and sees like my Father and Yeshua, but even I know I fail at this time and again. I know that at times I hear things and see things that are not as I perceive them. It is only when I hear my Father’s Voice that I am certain. Yeshua tells us that His sheep know His Voice.

The word antenna comes

from 17th century Latin, alteration (of a ship), used in the plural to translate Greek keraioi’ horns (of insects).

Curiously, the Latin vulgate mistranslated Moses’ face shining as the word translated “shine” is closely connected with a word translated “horn.” Hence, the Latin version and others have rendered the verb “to be horned.” From this rendering of the word has arisen the popular representation of Moses with horns on his forehead; e. g. in Michelangelo’s statue at Rome.” (Barnes Notes). Even the meekest man to ever live is given horns due to misunderstandings. I think we all would prefer to have a shiny face versus horns any day. We all need our antennas tuned to His Channel, clear of any rust or eye damage, and washed in His Word and His blood. We need to be seeing with 2020 vision in this year 2020. What we’ve been seeing has been shocking to look at. Things can be hidden like Moses in a basket, or like the man Moses murdered and hid in the sand. There are always things hidden that He wants to reveal to us. All sorts of vial things hidden are surfacing in our media. It is as if the swamp is being drained. Everything in darkness must come forth to the light in order to be made whole. Even sex traffickers need the blood of Yeshua and freedom from bondage.

After Moses spent time with the Father in intimacy, he hid his face behind a veil. Later in the story, the Father will hide His face from Moses and only show him His Backside. There’s an old joke that goes like this: Does your face hurt? Because it’s killing me. This is a bad joke, but the Israelites did not want to look at Moses’ shining face. It made them afraid. Afraid of what? They were awestruck at the radiance that shined forth from Moses. They knew Moses had been in the presence of HaShem, and they had not. Adonai’s Voice had terrified them on the mount. There had been thunder and lightning, and smoke and the people trembled. Have you ever trembled in the presence of the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob? Have you ever felt shiny after spending intimate time with Him?

Our faces, like Moses, are to be getting brighter and brighter. Moses was spending time with the Father, and afterward, his face shone with brilliant light. Our countenance is supposed to reflect His Son, Yeshua, and we are to be his image-bearers. Paul said, “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into His image with intensifying glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” (II Cor. 3:17-18, NASB).

“And indeed, if our Good News has been veiled, it has been veiled in those who are perishing, in whom the mighty one of this age has blinded the minds of the unbelieving, so that the enlightening of the Good News of the esteem of Messiah, who is the likeness of Elohim, does not shine on them. For we do not proclaim ourselves, but Messiah יהושע the Master, and ourselves your servants for the sake of יהושע. In whom the mighty one of this age has blinded the minds of the unbelieving, so that the enlightening of the Good News of the esteem of Messiah, who is the likeness of Elohim, does not shine on them.” (II Corinthians 4:3-5, ISR).

What kind of blindness is Paul speaking of? Who is the (mighty one of this age) god of this world? In the book of Deuteronomy, we read that The Lord Elohim is God in heaven and on the earth below, and there is no other. Could it be possible that the Pharisaical spirit has blinded their eyes? It was the god at that time. Perhaps, Moses saw the face of Yeshua?

This is the mirror we want to reflect.

Have you looked in a mirror lately? Have you looked at someone with a stink eye?  Most of the world is wearing a mask. It is hard to present His image with a mask on or even a homemade colorful one. Many states are trying to fine people and charge them if found not wearing a mask. The principalities and powers in high places (government leaders) are who we wrestle against, but wrestling requires action. (Ephesians 6:12) (Gen. 32:22)

Is this a time to be silent and put a veil on?

Paul said, “Therefore having such a hope, we use great boldness in our speech, and are not like Moses, who used to put a veil over his face so that the sons of Israel would not look intently at the end of what was fading away. But their minds were hardened; for until this very day at the reading of the old covenant, the same veil remains unlifted, because it is removed in Christ. But to this day whenever Moses is read, a veil lies over their heart; but whenever a person turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.” (II Cor. 3:13-15, NASB).

Sha’ul or Paul said that we are not like Moses, who put a veil over his face. He said that we were to speak with great boldness and shine.

I want to close by sharing a fairy tale that involves something I feel is extremely important during 2020, and it involves our eyesight, which also affects our ears/hearing.

Han’s Christian Andersen, an author, best remembered for his fairy tales, wrote The Snow Queen, which was published in December of 1844.

We will look at some of the principal characters, and I will ask you to look deeper with me into the mirror and inspect your right eye (spiritual sight). If we are His image-bearers, why do we have ogre eyes and a distorted vision of people in our families, ministries, and lives? Is there a shard of glass that needs to be removed or a tiny grain of sand? Suspicion the size of a grain of sand. . . Let us start out with Han’s voice as he tells a beloved tale of becoming unfrozen and bringing healing to our eye gate and our ear gate, for if we silence the outside noise, and cleanse our eyes, we can hear light. Have you ever heard light?

“One day, an evil trolling ogre made a mirror that had the property of diminishing everything wonderful, good, kind, and beautiful that was reflected in it into virtually nothing. Matter a fact, things that were bad only grew worse.

“The loveliest landscapes looked like boiled spinach in it, and the best of people turned ugly or stood on their heads with no stomach, their faces became so distorted that they were unrecognizable, and if someone had a freckle, you could be sure that it spread out over both nose and mouth. It was most amusing, ‘the ogre’ said. If a good pious thought, went through the mind of a person, a grin appeared in the mirror, so that the ogre devil had to laugh at his ingenious invention. Everyone who went to an ogre school – for he ran such a place – said far and wide that a miracle had taken place; now for the first time one could really see, they felt, what the world and people really looked like. They ran around with the mirror, and finally, there wasn’t a country or a single person that had not been distorted in it. Now they wanted to fly up to Heaven itself to make fun of the angels and the ‘Good Lord.’ The higher they flew with the mirror, the louder it laughed, they could hardly hold onto it; higher and higher they flew, closer to God and the angels; then the mirror shook so violently as it grinned that it shot out of their hands and crashed down onto the ground, where it shattered into hundreds of millions, billions and even more pieces, and that was precisely what caused even more misfortune than before, for some of the pieces were scarcely as big as a grain of sand, and these flew all over the world, and wherever they got into people’s eyes, they stayed put and then those people saw everything wrong, or only had eyes for what was bad about something, for every speck of the mirror had retained the same power as the whole mirror had possessed; some people even got a tiny mirror shard in their heart, and that was quite horrible – the heart became like a lump of ice.

Some pieces of the mirror were so large that they were used for window-panes, but it wasn’t worth looking at one’s friends through that pane; others were put in spectacles, and things went badly when people put on those glasses so as to see clearly and be just; the evil ogre laughed till his stomach burst.” Full story Here– Hans Christian Anderson.

Have you noticed the distorted views of many? Only seeing the worst in others. Judging by the outward appearance and not the hearts of individuals and lumping everyone under specific titles. Not all people are the same.

In the Snow Queen, from the tiniest grain of sand and the smallest shard of glass, the stink eye got into all the people in the fairy tale. If the stink gets in the eye, it distorts the ear. If one has a wrong thought about a person, soon when the person speaks or tries to explain something, it’s met with a different octave sound. The frequency is not tuned in and now comes through the airwaves like fingernails on a chalkboard. Because of the glass hidden in the heart and the shards that have entered the eye gate, the person now cannot hear anything lovely coming from the voice of the one they have looked at through the dark glass of the adversary. Grab some Visine and a Q-tip.

The second portion, The Little Boy and The Little Girl, occur years later. The boy, Kai, and the girl, Gerda, live next door to each other. Gerda means guardian. Peace. Fertility. Famous bearer. Like Eve (Chavah), we are to be guardians of His Torah, image-bearers and produce seeds, life in perfect shalom. Kai has multiple meanings, including “ocean” (海), “shell” (貝), “restoration,” and “recovery.” As a surname, it means “Worth.” One meaning stated it means Chief and King of Kings, and also a meal or a feast. Yeshua, the second Adam is worthy of all glory and holds the title of King of Kings, but in this fairy tale, it seems we are dealing with a little boy who has been cast under a spell of the evil eye and its hurt his heart.

The children, Kai and Gerda, lived in a large city and grow vegetables and roses in window boxes placed on gutters.

“Kai’s grandmother tells the children about the Snow Queen, who is ruler over the “snow bees” that produce snowflakes that look like bees. As bees have a queen, so do the snow bees, and she is seen where the snowflakes cluster the most. Looking out of his frosted window one winter, Kai sees the Snow Queen, who beckons him to come with her. Kai draws back in fear from the window.”

By the following spring, Gerda has learned a song that she sings to Kai: Roses flower in the vale; there we hear Child Jesus’ tale! Because roses adorn the window box garden, roses always remind Gerda of her love for Kai. On a pleasant summer day, fragments of the troll-mirror get into Kai’s heart and eyes. Kai becomes cruel and aggressive. He destroys their window-box garden, he makes fun of his grandmother, and he no longer cares about Gerda, since everyone now appears bad and ugly to him. The only beautiful and perfect things to him now are the tiny snowflakes that he sees through a magnifying glass.” The Snow Queen– Wikipedia.

Instead of a Queen Bee, we have a Snow Queen and snow bees. If a bee is frozen, how can it make sweet honey? The Torah is said to be sweeter than honey, and our words should be too. Have we become snowflakes?

“It is unlikely that any two snowflakes are alike due to the estimated 1019 (10 quintillion) water molecules which make up a typical snowflake…” Yeshua’s Body is made up of many people, and no two are alike, and all are gifted and anointed to do a job, but the Body needs to be thawed out, unified, and humble.

By the time we get to the 7th story, we learn that Kai has been staying with the snow queen, and he is blue, cold as ice, and utterly oblivious to his condition. The Snow Queen leaves to visit some Southern volcanoes. While she is gone, Kai works on puzzle pieces made of ice. Are we busy doing the same? Are we numb to the condition of our own spiritual house, His Body, what is going on outside our doors? Have we lost our identity by being swept up in puzzles and piecing together knowledge from His Word but without His Ruach Holy Spirit? Have we turned so blue following Judah that we have left the Messiah and veiled our faces?

The snow queen leaves Kai alone and travels to warmer lands,– the land of volcanos. It was the volcanoes Vesuvius and Etna that she visited. “There are three theories about the origin of the name Vesuvius:-Hercules was son of the god Zeus and Alcmene of Thebes. Zeus was also known as Ves (Ὓης) in his aspect as the god of rains and dews. Hercules was thus alternatively known as Vesouvios (Ὓσου υἱός), “Son of Ves.” This name was corrupted into “Vesuvius.” From the Oscan word fesf, which means “smoke.”

Etna means, “I burn.” This smoke and fire, and rain is a falseness. This is not the fire and smoke that will fall when Yeshua returns; this is fire and ice of the snow queen—Like Tammuz and Baal worship, this must be cleansed. We do need the spirit of Elijah to tear down the false altars. Isaiah reveals the true fire and ice.

“In that day, the Branch of the LORD (Yeshua Messiah) will be beautiful and glorious, and the fruit of the earth will be the pride and the adornment of the survivors of Israel. It will come about that he who is left in Zion and remains in Jerusalem will be called holy—everyone who is recorded for life in Jerusalem. When the Lord has washed away the filth of the daughters of Zion and purged the bloodshed of Jerusalem from her midst, by the spirit of judgment and the spirit of burning, then the LORD will create over the whole area of Mount Zion and over her assemblies a cloud by day, even smoke, and the brightness of a flaming fire by night; for over all the glory will be a canopy. There will be a shelter to give shade from the heat by day, and refuge and protection from the storm and the rain.” (Isaiah 4:1-6, NASB).

After the icy snow queen leaves, Gerda walks in to find Kai, but he cannot recognize her. She weeps over him, and her tears melt the shard of the mirror that had pierced his heart, and then he begins to weep and cleanses his eye from the evil eye. Can we weep over the Body of Messiah and pray that we unthaw from our icy blue condition? Can we cleanse our eyes of rust and the evil vision towards our brothers and sisters and take every shard of glass from among us—melting our icy cold condition and be filled with His wonderous Spirit? I pray so. May we become bold and unveiled, as lights that shine in the darkness.

Blessings and Shalom,

Tekoa Manning

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Dismembered Body Part 3–Government in His House

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Welcome to my blog. Today, I am going to be focusing on lawlessness in the Body of Yeshua versus our nation, and the 5-fold ministry. Also, social media—what are the rules? Please click the subscribe button on the podcast/ Youtube channel. A big shout out to James Block for allowing his beautiful music to be featured. We love you and your worship ministry. Now, let’s dig into the message I have prepared.

Is there lawlessness in the Messianic structure? Even the United States has three branches of government. Who are you held accountable to? You may be thinking, I am accountable to God, but also He and His Son set up positions of authority such as Moses, Aaron, and Miriam. We are told to have a five-fold structure set up by Yeshua. Why?

If I am driving 20 miles over the speed limit and a police officer is behind me, I am going to slow down. Right now, in the Body of Yeshua, who is it that we are held accountable to? Even Donald Trump is held accountable. Why hasn’t leadership set up a Five-fold to be held accountable to? Could it be that deep down, we do not want to be held liable?

I want to present you with some questions to ponder, and I am eager to hear your responses. Can we judge our governors and authorities placed in offices across this land to bring justice and mercy when our own structure is lacking basic authority set up in the manner commanded by our Father and Yeshua?

 Love and Hate, have we been looking at this wrong? Have we been taught an accurate definition of these words?

Leadership in the Bible often used harsh words—people were removed outside the camp and outside the congregations, and everyone knew it. It wasn’t hushed, hush. It was “turn this one over to satan for the destruction of the flesh.” No one gossiped about those being correction. They had a different type of fear and honor. Can you imagine going to a congregation today and becoming part of a family and being told to leave until you get your fleshly beast nature under control? Your gossip That’s how they rolled in Moses’ day and Paul’s day. Can you imagine watching your tables being turned over and everything flying through the air?

We have children of all ages who curse their parents or parent and do not obey any type of authority. “There is a generation of those who curse their fathers and do not bless their mothers.” (Proverbs 30:11). A generation with no honor for a teacher or principal. We have teachers sleeping with their students. We have people of all colors who refuse to allow the authority to handcuff them for breaking the law today, and we have authority in all types of positions of power who have no regard for human life, not from the baby in the womb or a convict crying for his very breath.

 Today there is no Five-fold in place because the leadership has removed the prophets and apostles and the Elders and when I say ‘elders,’ I don’t mean a person who carries an offering plate, or one who takes care of one’s online videos, comments, and keeps your website updated. I’m talking about teachers who know the Torah, which doesn’t mean they have to know the Hebrew language. Plenty of teachers are teaching well without speaking fluent Hebrew, but men do not want to share their “spotlight” with others who have the light. “Paul and Barnabas appointed elders for them in each church, praying and fasting as they entrusted them to the Lord, in whom they had believed.” (Acts 14:23). “The reason I left you in Crete was that you would set in order what was unfinished and appoint elders in every town, as I directed you.” (Titus 1:5).

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So back to rebukes and correction. Many today would consider the words of the prophets and apostles in Acts quite stern and unloving. They spoke with authoritative admonitions when needed. Where are those men and women today in the Father’s House? I will continue to sound the alarm that we are not keeping His Torah when we have no government in place. We need the five-fold. If we are pointing at the world’s leadership right now in judgment, and the lawlessness we see on our television/computer screens, we should look inward because He starts with us first. We are to be an example—a light. I’m taking a more in-depth look in the mirror at what things I may be doing due to no authority. No Messianic communities or Christian communities want to elect or be held accountable to a five-fold. This is the same message I presented to the Body when people were getting very upset about homosexual marriage rights, and the very ones pointing the fingers, the church, has countless acts of adultery and divorce rates higher than the world. However, the world doesn’t marry as much, as shacking up has become the norm. The Messianic community is now promoting polygamy in some circles as a way of life, and no one corrects them because we have no power in leadership. We have huge ministries spreading fear-based hate about the Jewish people, Yeshua’s own tribe, and ignorance about the Talmud, which Yeshua quoted. We have fear being spread to the point we look like Cnn versus Fox news. Everyone does what is right in his own eyes. Even significant, influential teachers who have huge platforms and media followers in large numbers, do not have a structured body of individuals in place. Paul said that we need this until we become mature and unified.

And it was He who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to equip the saints for works of ministry and to build up the body of Christ, until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God, as we mature to the full measure of the stature of Christ.

Then we will no longer be infants, tossed about by the waves and carried around by every wind of teaching and by the clever cunning of men in their deceitful scheming. 15Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things, grow up into Christ Himself, who is the head. 16From Him the whole body, fitted and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love through the work of each individual part.” (Ephesians 4:11-16).

Since Hollywood and the world tries to paint a false picture of what love and hate are, we have to redefine this through the truth of God’s Word.

 Gentler speech and keeping silent was not what the apostles or prophets did. As a matter a fact, the words they spoke caused them to be stoned to death, beheaded, flogged, thrown in jail or crucified, and they spoke those words in front of kings, leadership, the High priest, and the people. They even gave speeches in front of statues of unknown gods—to men who were swept up in Greek thought. There was no Facebook or social media, this was their social media, and it was face to face. They were also at times speaking to people who were not of like mind or like kind. They were told to spread the gospel.

Paul said, “Men of Athens, I see that in every way you are very religious. For as I walked around and examined your objects of worship, I even found an altar with this inscription:


Therefore what you worship as something unknown, I now proclaim to you. The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples made by human hands. 25Nor is He served by human hands, as if He needed anything because He Himself gives everyone life and breath and everything else. 26From one man He made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and He determined their appointed times and the boundaries of their lands.” (Acts 17:22-26)

Paul continued speaking repentance as many mocked him.

These men and women spoke with authority. When John the Baptist corrected Herod for sleeping with his brother’s wife, do you think he said, “Now, now, it is not right what you are doing? You should stop this. No, he said, “It is not lawful for you to have your brother’s wife. You are breaking the Torah!” But men don’t want to hear the truth. They have exchanged the truth for a lie. We call evil good today and good evil. Some would even say that John just needed to shine his light and not say anything. No need to correct the blind.

How would you like to hear this message from your favorite Pastor or Torah teacher?

Ezekiel speaks for the Father, and he says, “You also played the harlot with the Egyptians, you’re [lustful neighbors) ( your neighbor’s penis), and multiplied your harlotry to make Me angry. (Ezekiel 16:26 NASB)

What about Jeremiah’s words below? How loving are they?

“You are a swift young she-camel

galloping here and there,

a wild donkey at home in the wilderness,

sniffing the wind in the heat of her desire.

Who can restrain her passion?

All who seek her need not weary themselves;

In mating season they will find her.

You should have kept your feet from going bare

and your throat from being thirsty.

But you said, ‘It is hopeless!

For I love foreign gods,

and I must go after them.’” (Jeremiah 2:23-26).

But back to the definition of love and hate.”  

What if a husband and wife fell dead before your eyes after being rebuked by your pastor or Torah teacher’s correction? It happened in Acts. What type of honor would the body have for authority if that were the case today? Where are men and women who speak with authority?

Peter said, “Ananias, how is it that Satan has filled your heart to lie to the Holy Spirit and withhold some of the proceeds from the land? Did it not belong to you before it was sold? And after it was sold, was it not at your disposal? How could you conceive such a deed in your heart? You have not lied to men, but to God!”

On hearing these words, Ananias fell down and died. And great fear came over all who heard what had happened. Then the young men stepped forward, wrapped up his body, and carried him out and buried him.

About three hours later, his wife also came in, unaware of what had happened. “Tell me,” said Peter, “is this the price you and your husband got for the land?”

“Yes,” she answered, “that is the price.”

“How could you agree to test the Spirit of the Lord?” Peter replied. “Look, the feet of the men who buried your husband are at the door, and they will carry you out also.”

At that instant, she fell down at his feet and died. (Acts 5:3-10)

Great fear fell on those who heard of this. We need great fear and bold men and women who are not afraid to call out deceit, anarchy, and lawlessness.

Later, the Father gives Paul a dream to stay in Corinth and preach.

There is a time to speak and a time to remain silent.

Yes, Silence, to has its place. How do we use wisdom to know when to speak and when to be silent?

(The sages valued silence. They called it “a fence to wisdom.”[6] If words are worth a coin, silence is worth two.[7] R. Shimon ben Gamliel said, “All my days I have grown up among the wise, and I have found nothing better than silence.”[8]) (The office of Rabbi Jonathan Sacks).

But the Father told Jeremiah, “Get yourself ready. Stand up and tell them everything that I command you. Do not be intimidated by them, or I will terrify you before them” (Jeremiah 1:17).

He told Ezekiel, “Ezekiel 2:6

“But you, son of man, do not be afraid of them or their words. Do not be afraid, though briers and thorns surround you, and you dwell among scorpions. Do not be afraid of their words or dismayed by their presence, though they are a rebellious house.”

After Jeremiah cries that he is too young, the Father tells him not to say that. “Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ For to everyone I send you, you must go, and all that I command you, you must speak. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to deliver you.” (Jeremiah 1:7-8).

Peace and love movements are often giving one a warm fuzzy feeling, but there is usually no order. A place called Chaz and then Chop is an occupied Protest zone in Seattle. The CHAZ name (Capitol Hill Autonomous Zone) was changed to CHOP for (Capitol Hill Occupied Protest). This name had to change because, as a person who is very interested in the meaning of words, Chaz means a free man, and CHOP is anything but free. What does chop mean?

  1. Cut (something) into pieces with repeated sharp blows of an ax or knife.

      2. abolish or reduce the size of (something) in a way regarded as ruthless.

It is ruthless what the governor has allowed to happen in Seattle. Ruthless means without law, for Ruth, took on Torah as a garment and wore mercy and righteousness. The city of Chop has spray-painted hate on the buildings and other profanities. Waste and feces line the streets, and one video depicted a man peeing and another defecating in the street. Other videos show drug addicts, drunk half-naked people fighting and armed gunmen. The businesses people have worked for are boarded up or vandalized. There is no order. No authority. Can you smell the urine? What does His House look like? Can a house have walls with no foundation poured? Does a home need a roof? What about plumbing to make sure the stench isn’t freely flowing in open view. What about electricity? The Ark of the Covenant with His Torah in the heart. All His House needs all His Body working together in order. He is a Father/ Creator of order. He created the whole universe in order.

Hopefully, the many who were raised with no honor and learned to disrespect authority or usurp authority will begin to see that we need change. Yes, guilty people of all skin color need accountability. A husband and wife dropping dead in front of a congregation would undoubtedly cause people to fear an authority higher than High, an authority that sits on the ultimate throne in the heavens. Money is the root of all evil and this couple held back money and tried to hide that they did so. What are we hiding or hiding from?

Blessings, Tekoa Manning.

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The Voice of Hosea

​I heard the men whispering in the market. Suddenly one of them with piercing eyes was standing before me.
“What is your daughter’s name, he asked?”
I glance down at her angelic face before answering him.
Lo-Ruhammah, (low—Rue-hay-ma)
I whisper.
“So it is true?” He says, his eyes intently staring at me.
I stood up straighter, returning his gaze before answering.
“Yes, her name is an example of what is coming on our people because we have left our first love!”
The man’s face flashed with disgust. He placed his loaf of bread back into the basket of my shop.
“Who would do such a thing as name their daughter this! He raised his hands up to the heavens in disbelief. “Disgusting,” He said before he spat on the ground—the other men in the marketplace gawk. I continue wrapping a fresh loaf of challah for the customer in front of me and then speak.
“What was I to do? HaShem told me to name my daughter “no mercy.”
I then tell him, we would do well to return—to do Teshuvah. It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of an angry Father.”
The man shakes his head and walks away from me. I embrace my daughter and tell her I love her. She is still too young to know or understand.
Oh, the grief I feel to speak over my own seed a name as no mercy. My second son is named Lo-Ammi (low-am-eye), which means “not my people.” His name, too, was ordained by HaShem, who spoke to me, saying, “You are not my people, and I am not your God.” He tells me that at a later time, He will proclaim that we are His people again, but things are very somber for now.
My mother hates the names of her grandchildren. Who can blame her? I look at them and am reminded to weep and mourn over my people and to fast for us. I warn and explain what I am hearing, but no one seems to pay much attention to a man whose wife continues to love another. Abba tells me that my wife that I love so much is like His people. Even though she looks at me with her dark eyes and raven hair and speaks such lovely words to me, I know her heart is far from me. Abba tells me that His people draw near with their mouth, and with their lips honor Him, but they have removed their hearts far away. My heart breaks daily.
Before I go any further, Shalom, My name is Hosea. My father was the prince of Rueben’s tribe, and he, too, was a prophet. His name, Beeri (bee-ee-rye), means Adonai’s well, and his writings were incorporated in the book of Isaiah, chapter eight.
I, Hosea, wanted to speak to you and your people. I am aware that it is 2020 there, but my writings were not just given to me for my people, but for future generations as well. I pray you will listen.
Where to begin? The Father told me, “Hosea, take to yourself a wife of harlotry and have children of harlotry; for the land commits flagrant harlotry, forsaking Me. It is difficult, but I have a deep passionate love for my wife. It’s as if the Father has given me more compassion and love for Gomer than anyone I’ve ever met. Oh, how I love her even though she has eyes that lust after other gods and other men. So many nights, I walk the streets and corner brothels looking for my beloved. I search the red-light districts weeping and praying.
HaShem told me to Go show love to my wife again, though she is loved by another and is an adulteress. Love her as I love my people Israel, though they turn to other gods and offer raisin cakes to idols. My wife Gomer was like a slave standing there in public at the auction. She may as well have been naked. Men were looking her over. I bought her for fifteen shekels of silver and a homer and a half of barley. The silver and the barley – amounted to thirty shekels, or three pounds and ten or fifteen shillings. Thirty shekels is the estimated value of a manservant or maidservant; for it is stated in our Torah that “if an ox pushes a manservant or a maidservant, he shall give unto their master thirty shekels of silver.” In Numbers chapter 5, Barley is an offering for a woman suspected of adultery. I paid the highest bid for my bride because even though she has been unfaithful, my love for her is unending. Possibly you are remembering that thirty pieces of silver were paid to Judas to betray the Messiah, Yeshua? Yeshua came to pay the price to redeem us from the slave market of sin and clothe our shame with His righteousness. He was the One who was sold, for 30 pieces of silver.
The Father’s sorrow has become my sorrow. If only I did not love her so, then perhaps my heart would not be so broken. Every day I picture Gomer holy, pure, dressed in robes of righteousness, smiling at our children and teaching them the Father’s Word.
Possibly you’ve never heard of me? My prophetic ministry began during the prosperous time of Jeroboam II, but after he died, his son, Zachariah, took the throne. He was assassinated after six months by Shallum. Shallum, too, was assassinated, not even a month into his reign.
Things have become grave. We’ve had five Kings, and three have seized the throne through violence. Manahem shed much blood to get his position, yes, he took the throne after Shallum, and he began paying tribute to Assyria. The amount of silver he paid was almost 40 tons. The Father called him a vulture and said, “Set the trumpet to your lips! One like a vulture is over the house of the Lord Adonai because they have transgressed my covenant and rebelled against my Torah” (Hosea 8:1). It seems wickedness brings such leaders to a nation.
I tend to refer to the Northern kingdom of Israel as Ephraim. It’s become complete anarchy here. Ephraim is like a dove, silly and without sense, calling to Egypt, going to Assyria. They bargain and carry oil to Egypt. Whoever heard of such a thing? They seek leaders to save them, but not HaShem. Some trust in chariots and horses, but we must trust in our Father, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. They think the leaders give them oil, grain, new wine, and lavish them with silver and gold, but it is HaShem.
Baal worship is strong here, but it is strong there where you are sitting in the 21st century. Baal means Lord or master. Baal Peor was and is a god of sexual appetites. We have fertility goddess worship. We have idols that are enlarged sex organs. Orgies and temple prostitutes are common. The people seem to have a license for perversions, and even child sacrifices to Molech.
I have viewed some of your movies there and even commercials promoting drugs for sexual arousal. I have been looking at the number of sacrifices to Molech and the number of abortions in your nation. It may be packaged differently, but I fear your nation and others have even surpassed my people Israel. During the reign of Jeroboam II, we had economic prosperity. The people were extremely wealthy, overfed, and self-consumed. We, of course, cannot take selfies on iPhones, but we are self-seeking.
Friendly relations with the Phoenicians have brought many things of beauty and luxury to my people, just as many nations have brought luxury to your people. They recline on beds of ivory while their morals collapse. Ephraim says, “Surely I have become rich,
I have found wealth for myself, In all my labors they will find in me No iniquity.”
Things creep in slowly, desensitizing us. I have seen your hoarders and the bridal television shows there where the bride’s gowns are so sheer, see-through even. The brides expose their breasts and dress like a harlot on their wedding day. Oh, how His bride needs clothing. The Father says He will uncover our lewdness In the sight of our lovers, And no one will rescue us out of His Hand. HaShem told me, He will be like a lion to Ephraim
And like a young lion to the house of Judah.
He will tear to pieces and go away, and there will be none to deliver us.
The people seek Him at their festivals, but He has pulled back Until they acknowledge their guilt and seek His face. He tells me that in our affliction, we will earnestly seek Him. But people do not want to speak of affliction or suffering. They say, tells us smooth things. Give us prosperity.
Although my heart is tender and sore concerning Gomer, I am not without hope. HaShem tells me that after the affliction, He will lead us into the wilderness and speak tenderly to us.
A marriage to Baal is nothing but ownership, slavery, dominance, and it leaves one very empty. But HaShem says He is our maker and our husband. He has given us a wedding ring and a marriage covenant. He wants a bride who is searching for Him like the woman in Song of Songs. She says, Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you– if you find my beloved, what will you tell him? Tell him I am faint with love.
Like the Father, I married Gomer. She is my bride, but she is often straying after other lovers. Her name means “to come to an end.” Her name, like my children, pierce my heart. The Father often uses my wife and my children to speak to me. The things He shares are very sorrowful, but still, He offers mercy. Some days my grief seems to weigh more than the sand of the seashore. Yet, He tells me, one day, the number of the Israelites will be like the sand of the sea, which cannot be measured or counted. And it will happen that in the very place where it was said to us, ‘You are not My people,’ that we will be called ‘sons of the living God. I cling to this.
I continue to warn my people, but my voice is often used in mockery. The people are in a hurry. They are busy, and they continue to run to and fro.
People are eating, drinking, marrying, and being given in marriage just like the days of Noah. Then the flood came and destroyed them all. They do not know what is coming upon them. Remember when your towers fell? It seemed like a Hollywood production, but there is was on your news channels. It came unexpectantly. It came in the blink of an eye. The number 911 is remembered each year.
It is the Father who told me to “Go, take a prostitute as my wife and have children of adultery because this land is flagrantly prostituting itself by departing from the Him.”
I, Hosea, wanted to bring this message to you and plead with you during this season, to fall in love again. The Messiah speaks to one particular body of believers in the book of Revelations, and he says,
“I have this against you that you have left your first love. Remember, therefore, from where you have fallen; repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lampstand from its place—unless you repent. May we all renew our vows this Shavuot and be like a bride who is working on her bridal garments to become without spots or wrinkles.
I wish to leave you with the last words from my writings. The Father is speaking here as He pleads for all of us to bring Him Words and return.

Return O Israel, to Adonai your God,
for you have stumbled in your iniquity.
3 Take words with you and return to Adonai.
Say to Him: “Take away all iniquity,
and accept what is good,
so we may repay with offerings of our lips:
4 ‘Assyria will not save us.
We will not ride on horses,
and we will never again say, “Our god,”
to the work of our hands,
for with You, orphans find mercy.'”

5 “I will heal their backsliding,
I will love them freely,
for My anger will turn away from him.
6 I will be like the dew for Israel.
He will blossom like a lily,
and thrust out his roots like Lebanon.
7 His tender shoots will spread out.
His beauty will be like an olive tree
and his fragrance will be like Lebanon.
8 Those dwelling in his shadow will return.
They will grow grain and bud like a vine.
His renown will be like the wine of Lebanon.

9 Ephraim: “What more are idols to me?
I have responded and observed Him.
I will be like a luxuriant cypress tree.
From me will be found Your fruit.”

10 Who is wise? Let him discern these things.
Who is intelligent? Let him know them.[c]
For the ways of Adonai are straight,
and then just walk in them,
but the wicked stumble in them. Hosea 14
This is Hosea signing off, shalom!

Posted in devotional, Healing of the soul, Tekoa Manning, TM

Beethoven and Kislev

assorted-color Mozart statues

Beethoven was born on December 17th, 1770. Right away, I noticed the sevens and looked up the date on the calendar for that year. His date of birth fell on the 7th day of Chanukah (Hanukkah) in the Hebrew month of Kislev. (Although Hanukkah always begins on the 25th day of Kislev, that date can fall anywhere between late November and late December on the Gregorian calendar). Beethoven’s birth, name, and deafness all orchestrate a melody. And just like the celebration of Chanukah, Beethoven would shine his light in the darkness of deafness.

“The name Kislev derives from the Hebrew word kesel (כֶּסֶל), which means either “security,” or “trust.” There are two states of trust—one active and one passive—both of which manifest in the month of Kislev, which in the human body correspond to the right and left kidneys, respectively. In Hebrew, the word for kidney is also kesel (כֶּסֶל).” Gal Einai.

May we actively trust the Father!

Several of my readers may remember a blog I wrote entitled The Kidneys and the Ears. Hearing the most profound truth is attributed to the kidneys. If you slice a kidney in half, it looks just like our ears.

You are near in their mouth but far from their kidneys” (Jeremiah 12:2 ISR). Our Bible translators have replaced the word kidney with rein or heart and often as inward parts, but kidneys were the original wording.

Beethoven’s autopsy report showed he had renal disease among a whole list of disparaging health issues. Some of his aliments were caused by roots and bark used as medicine back then.

Ludwig van Beethoven is a name most people all over the globe are familiar with. He wrote nine symphonies that took music to another galaxy. But it’s his personal life and calling that I want to zoom in on. This man suffered horribly, and yet, his heart-wrenching soul was able to strike keys, and soar violin bows into a place where melodies leave us mesmerized.

black grand piano

I often say, our pain is usually for another’s gain. Frequently the world sees the gift and not the person. We know Beethoven due to his masterpieces. I could listen to Fur Elise or Beethoven 9th Symphony – Movement IV – “Ode to Joy” daily, but what about the man who composed them?

Ludwig van Beethoven, one of the greatest musical geniuses of all time, had a horrible childhood, was often misunderstood, and later became deaf. His name from birth was prophetically chosen. “Van meaning (from)– Beethoven meaning gardens or fields (from the garden (paradise)). Ludwig–The first element is (h)lūt (“famed; loud”) (whence modern German laut), (whence also English loud), from Proto-Indo-European *ḱlew- (“to hear”). The second element is wīg (“battle, strife”)”

A man who would battle hearing loss with great strife would become loud and famous for his musical brilliance. Yes, his name has all those aspects embedded in it.

Beethoven had two younger brothers, Caspar (Keeper of the treasure) and Johann (God is merciful). His mother, Maria (sea of sorrow), experienced so much grief, I find no words to describe the magnitude. She married at the age of 16 and bore a son who died in infancy. Her first husband died after just two years of marriage.  By the age of 18, Maria was already a widow and mother. This did not appeal to Johann’s father, the Kapellmeister. Maria would marry Johann, and once again lose a son shortly after his birth. This happened multiple times.

“The British playwright Enid Bagnold once asked a feminist what advice she would give to a twenty-three-year-old housewife who, having lost four children, found herself pregnant again by an abusive, alcoholic husband.

“I would urge her to terminate the pregnancy,” the feminist replied.

 “Then,” said Ms. Bagnold, “you would have aborted Beethoven.” (Edmund Morris, Beethoven:The Universal Composer).

Kislev is the 9th month, the time of pregnancy in the womb, and all LIFE is precious. The truth is, Beethoven’s mother lost two sons before him, one of them being her first husband’s, but she did go on to lose even more children.

Besides Beethoven, Caspar, and Johann, she had three more children (one boy and two girls); all of them died very soon, respectively, at the age of four days, two years, and one year.  She is poetically described by Edmund Morris like this:

” Her final confinement left her depressed and frail, doomed to expire herself, at forty, of consumption. Slender, earnest-eyed, moralistic, genteel, she floats like a faded watercolor sketch in the van Beethoven family scrapbook, amid more robust images of men of high color and stocky build.”

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Beethoven’s father, Johann, was a drunk and a mediocre court singer. He sang in the chapel of the Archbishop of Cologne in Bonn. However, Beethoven looked up to his grandfather, whom he was named after, Kapellmeister (Master) Ludwig van Beethoven, for he was Bonn’s most affluent and celebrated musician. His home was filled with silver and wealth, while Beethoven’s father’s home was filled with banknotes and poverty.

According to Biography, “Sometime between the births of his two younger brothers, Beethoven’s father began teaching him music with extraordinary rigor and brutality that affected him for the rest of his life. Neighbors provided accounts of the small boy weeping while he played the clavier, standing atop a footstool to reach the keys, his father beating him for each hesitation or mistake.”

The one area that brought Beethoven so much pain would also bring him fame and joy. Many times our gifting can cause us pain and joy.

Beethoven was deprived of sleep for extra hours of practice.  On a near daily basis, he was flogged and locked in the cellar by his father, but one can’t hide LIGHT in the darkness because a lamp will only shine brighter. Sadly, Beethoven received custody of his nephew and was often cruel like his father had been to him. He longed for him to be a musician, but the young man was not gifted in this area.

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“He studied the violin and clavier with his father as well as taking additional lessons from organists around town. Whether in spite of or because of his father’s draconian methods, Beethoven was a prodigiously talented musician from his earliest days.” Biography.

Some historians say, by the age of 13, Beethoven became Assistant Court Musician and placed on salary to support his family because his father’s alcoholism had reached the point that he could no longer provide for the family. In 1787 the court sent Beethoven to Vienna, where he longed to study with Mozart. “Tradition has it that, upon hearing Beethoven, Mozart said, “Keep your eyes on him; some day he will give the world something to talk about.”

When the Father sends people who want to learn or be mentored from us, we should have the heart of Mozart and not see the person as a threat, but instead, someone who will use their gifts to glorify the Father. All people are unique in their gifting. Although Beethoven had a cruel upbringing, he later composed much that was for the sole purpose of exalting the Father of LIGHTS.

Beethoven started becoming deaf at around the age of 26.  The intense buzzing in his ears caused irritability, and for many years, the people around him had no idea he was suffering so. I cannot imagine losing my eyesight. I never know what story will come forth from my fingers until I start typing, and that is the one course I failed–typing. So as I write books and blogs, my eyes are always on the keys. Beethoven’s ears were still on the keys, straining to hear a vibration.

black and silver point-and-shoot camera

While giving piano instructions to a Hungarian countess, Beethoven fell in love with her, but he was not allowed to marry her due to his social status. He later would dedicate his “Moonlight” Sonata No. 14 to her. He wrote, “No friend have I. I must live by myself alone, but I know well that God is nearer to me than others in my art, so I will walk fearlessly with Him.”

What a quote!

His ruddy complexion bore the scars of childhood smallpox. He unruly dark hair and bushy eyebrows stood out making his sorrowful eyes only more dramatized. His deafness was socially awkward for him. He was a short man and unprofessional in his behavior. I’m reminded of a passage that may have comforted Beethoven. “He had no stately form or majesty that we should look upon Him, Nor appearance that we should be attracted to Him.” (Isaiah 53:2). The leprous Messiah.

One friend described Beethoven like this.

His clumsy movements lacked all grace. He rarely picked up anything without dropping or breaking it… Everything was knocked over, soiled, or destroyed. How he ever managed to shave himself at all remains difficult to understand, even considering the frequent cuts on his cheeks. – He never learned to dance in time with the music.”

A man so highly gifted in one area, yet lacking in so many others.

Listen to Moon Light Sonata #14 and tell me if you picture a dyslexic, clumsy, awkward man with no rhythm? Many times, when a person is gifted in one area– and that area is sensitively magnified, they may be quite challenged in other areas.

Several close friends left a multitude of adjectives to describe this creative genius.

“Beethoven’s personality was also challenging:

“As a young man, Beethoven was frank to the point of rudeness. Headstrong and proud, he was never willing to conform in his behavior… As he grew older and deafness overtook him, the negative aspects of Beethoven’s personality came to the fore. He was increasingly given to bouts of despair, the difficulties of communication made him more reserved, and he became more suspicious and distrustful of others.” (read more, HERE).

Our ears and what we hear and how we hear it can affect our thoughts. If my heart sees your heart as FOR ME, and you speak something that sounds the opposite, I am going to ask you to elaborate. On the flip side, if we do not think the person in front of us has a good heart, we may take their words and misconstrue them. Hearing and seeing are vital in the spiritual sense.

Beethoven’s behavior and personality—utterly unpredictable. Domestic luxuries were unimportant to him, and he was a creature of disorderliness.

Baron de Tremont writes of a visit to Beethoven in 1809:

Picture to yourself the dirtiest, most disorderly place imaginable – blotches of moisture covered the ceiling, an oldish grand piano, on which dust disputed the place with various pieces of engraved and manuscript music; under the piano (I do not exaggerate) an unemptied pot de nuit; (portable toilet)… the chairs, mostly cane-seated, were covered with plates bearing the remains of last night’s supper and with wearing apparel, etc.”

Count von Keglevics, the nephew of one of Beethoven’s students, wrote:

“he had a whim, one of many, since he lived across from her [his student], of coming to give her lessons clad in a dressing gown, slippers, and a peaked nightcap.”

Many times those gifted with extreme wealth in one area are labeled strange in another. Beethoven couldn’t spell very well or do simple math, but he could surely compose! Because Beethoven dropped out of traditional school at 10, he never learned the fundamentals.  Multiple historians believe he had learning disabilities and possibly dyslexia. From reading the few comments left by acquaintances, and knowledge of his upbringing, it’s easy to see the genius was still suffering from trauma, suspicions, and fearful of the world. He was most comfortable alone in his apartment wearing pajamas and writing music in his head from the memory of what each musical note held. Bathing was overrated, and cleaning up would take away from the very thing that had been beaten into him from childhood.

people watching orchestra

In his earlier days, Beethoven would leave Bonn and travel abroad, teaching students and being taught by the likes of Hayden and other greats. It has been said that this free spirited man, Beethoven, rewrote the rule book for Classical music.

Beethoven bent, folded, spindled, and mutilated the Classical style, believing completely that its rules, rituals, and traditions were only useful up to the point that they served the expressive context. Beyond that, he reserved the right to do exactly what he pleased.”

In his later years, reaching total deafness, he depended on writing pads or notebooks to communicate. He stayed isolated in his apartment much of the time. Many of these conversations written on notepads have survived. Some of them are only one-sided, but they give the reader much to ponder.

“On one occasion, it seems Beethoven was discussing the Resurrection with his friend Karl Peters. We don’t know what question Beethoven asked, but Peters’ reply sums up the contemporary crisis of faith and the hope of overcoming it: “You will arise with me from the dead—because you must. Religion remains constant, and only Man is changeable.”

Taking advice from one physician, during his darkest days of depression, he took to nature.

– July 1814

“My miserable hearing does not trouble me here. In the country, it seems as if every tree said to me: ‘Holy! Holy!’ Who can give complete expression to the ecstasy of the woods! O, the sweet stillness of the woods!” (Ludwig van Beethoven).

In 1814, in a rehearsal for the Archduke Trio, it was said that Beethoven pounded on the keys until the strings jangled, and in piano, he played so softly that whole groups of notes were absent. His deafness had crippled his ability to discern this. How many of us have a beautiful melody inside but at times when we try to orchestrate the words, they come out harsh?

“When it came to the premiere of his massive Ninth Symphony, Beethoven insisted on conducting. The orchestra hired another conductor, Michael Umlauf, to stand alongside the composer. Umlauf told the performers to follow him and ignore Beethoven’s directions. The symphony received rapturous applause, which Beethoven could not hear. Legend has it that the young contralto Carolina Unger approached the maestro and turned him around to face the audience, to see the ovation.”

group on people inside building

Sometimes we just need help with the gift.

One day, we too pray that Yeshua will turn us toward the Father and we will hear, “Well done my good and faithful servant.” In the mean time, let’s become so swept up in HIM, that we do not even hear the accolades of men. Our gift is for the Father. We work with our hands to glorify Him.  In this week’s haftarah, we read of David. He is old, dying, and trying to stay warm, but his Psalm’s warm our very souls with glory, glory for the Father.

What is the Glory of Adonai? Dr. Skip Moen explains it this way in his blog titled Glory.

“Glory – Our western culture pushes God into categories governed by the Greek mind. We think of God in terms of logic and rationale. We end up with descriptions of God as omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent. All true, but all sterile. David knows God in an entirely different way. David’s God is amazing in deeds, awesome in power, and wonderfully beautiful.” (Here)

Can we be so caught up in His Glory, that even our weaknesses become our strengths? Paul said, “Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, THEN I AM STRONG.” (II Cor. 12:10). 

Who are we with stinky chamber pots, needing a change of garments or warmth, pounding on keys to make a melody for You that we often cannot even hear Your Voice, Oh, Great and Mighty, Father. And yet, You are mindful of us! May we run the race with horse blinders on, running to get the prize even with our imperfections and times of deafness. Not a prize given to men by men, but a prize that transcends time.

Surprisingly, it was in Beethoven’s late years, that he produced some of his most admired work, and he was utterly deaf then. When we have spiritual ears, we can still hear the melody of heaven. These outward bodies are perishing daily, but our spirit man grows stronger. I laughed at the last words recorded by Beethoven, “Pity, pity—too late!” as the dying composer was told of a gift of twelve bottles of wine from his publisher.

selective focus photography of bottles

Beethoven’s father wanted his son to become Mozart. As a piano virtuoso, Beethoven went on to surpass Mozart in measures unheard of. Every flower has its day in the sun when its colors burst forth, and people walk by and say, “Look at the beauty of those orchids, roses, and daffodils and smell their sweet aroma.” But once the colors fade and the petals drop, the stem bent and shrinking towards the earth, that season is over. Let us work while its still light and let us shine even in the darkest cellar.

Some sources have listed his last words as, “I shall hear in heaven.” And so shall we, friends, and even now as our Father’s Kingdom is burning in our kidneys like a flame. During the month of Kislev, the month of dreams, the month of light in the darkness–May we dream, and may we get to the very root of the riddle. May we hear and obey. May we take our precious gifts from Abba and use them as Beethoven did. Even with the loss of his natural hearing, he could still hear the music!! Even with our disfigurement, our frailties’, our lack of communication skills, our dyslexia’s, our past beatings, and cruelties,’ MAY WE SHINE.


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Posted in Five-Fold and Torah, Tekoa Manning, TM

Go Home and The Five-Fold. Leadership Part VII

This series is getting lengthy. I have over 150 pages and much research for laying the groundwork for another book. Once that book is completed the blog series will be deleted except for three or four blogs. I hope you are enjoying it, and I welcome any feedback.

So far, during this blog series, I have taught without becoming too personal. This blog will be different.
When the Father stripped me of everything that defined me as a person and did a renewal of my spirit through a journey of sickness and homelessness, a few years later, I was thrust into ministry. There was very little in the ‘church’ that I did not get a taste of. I do not mention the following for the esteem of man. Many men would not even consider me worthy of the calling, and yet, I was a counselor and a prayer director. I ministered to those vexed with demons. I ministered to the homeless, those with addictions and in hospitals. For a season, I taught an adult beginner’s class on the Hebraic roots of our faith. I preached the gospel twice a month from the pulpit. I was thrust into the prophetic ministry and prayed over people who needed healing, confirmation or direction, and when I met my husband, an associate pastor/ evangelist at the time, we often spoke together. We complemented each other, and he was at times bookends for the message I was given. Suddenly, we were doing what we had been called to do all of our lives. But just as quickly as we were plunged into ministry, we were taken out of it. My husband and I both were hurt deeply, but we also felt led to sit down and be taught more of the roots of our faith.

When I met my husband, I had already written a book called Doctrines of Demons. It sat in my computer for a few years before my husband got a hold of it and decided to read it. During this season he began to learn everything I had been researching and writing about rather quickly. This was a lot for him to ingest in a small amount of time. We both needed time to process what the Father was revealing. We felt like we were on an island and wondered if anyone else was seeing all the wonder and awe hidden in Abba’s Word.
However, once you’ve been given a driver’s license and multiple vehicles, it’s hard to hand over the keys, but the Father knew what He was doing.

After several years of keeping His Feasts, we were told to step out again and start having meetings. This has been a blessing, but this new landing has been difficult too. Over the years, we’ve been to several gatherings/events, each one different and unique. Each teacher gifted in different areas. Each had their own style, but none of them except one had a Five-fold structure/staff working together. Most people believe that we no longer need the whole five-fold ministry mentioned in Ephesians 4 as well as I Corinthians. For some reason, multiple people in leadership only count the teacher/shepherd as needed.
If the majority today do not see a need or even a scripture-based necessity for the five-fold, then my job through this blog series is to show the hidden truth, and I am not the only one on board with this. Multiple people in Messianic leadership are promoting and making videos to show how we are failing in unity and maturity because we are not keeping the structure provided for us.

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Many have been taught that an apostle had to be a witness of the Messiah and that those died out. I’m shocked at how many people are not aware that there were not just 12 apostles mentioned in the Newer Testament, but a total of over 25, not counting the 70 Yeshua called. And they were not all MEN. Remember the book of Acts was written sometime between 60 AD and 70 AD. That’s a long time after the death and resurrection of the Messiah.
“Eleven are named in Acts 1:13, Peter and John, James and Andrew, Philip and Thomas, Bartholomew and Matthew, James the son of Alphaeus and Simon the Zealot, and Judas, the son of James. Judas Iscariot, of the original twelve, the one who betrayed Yeshua isn’t listed here, but he makes 12. Now let’s add Matthias who replaced Judas Iscariot. (Acts 1:26).
This makes 13.
14. James, the brother of Yeshua —Galatians 1:19

15. Barnabas–Acts 14:14

16. Paul–Acts 14:14 and many other references

17. Apollos– 1 Corinthians 4:6-13)

18 and 19. Timothy and Silvanus– I Thessalonians 1:1 and 2:6

20. Epaphroditus–Philippians 2:25. While the King James Version translates the word as “messenger,” the Greek word (Apostolos) is actually “apostle.”
21 and 22. Two unnamed apostles–II Corinthians 8:23.
23 and 24. The name “Junia” appears in Romans 16:7, and Paul identifies her (along with Andronicus) as “prominent among the apostles.”
“They are outstanding among the apostles, and they were in Christ before I was” (Romans 16:7).
25. Titus (see 2 Corinthians 8:23; “messenger” is Apostolos in the Greek)
26. (Yeshua) and he also appointed 70 as ‘called out ones’ in Luke 10.
Not once does the Bible say or imply that these would be done away with.
Attend any Messianic congregation or Christian congregation, and the Body looks like Mr. Potato head missing vital parts. If you have been following this series, then you know the five-fold is to be in effect until we become mature and unified in the faith. We are still far from this!
Apostles and prophets and teachers/shepherds all need one another.
Recently a story has been circulating through the media. A prominent male Christian speaker told a very prominent female teacher “go home!” No room for you at the tomb. No room for you at a well. No need for us to ‘suffer’ you to teach. Go, home!

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I want to describe what it’s like to have a gift and calling that no one lets you use. I can honestly say it is the most heart-wrenching thing one can experience. Not because a person needs the spotlight or wants to usurp anyone else, but because the gift becomes rusty, frozen, and unused and the Body suffers from its lack of parts. A rusty door needs a shot of WD40 on occasion. Picture the prophets hidden in the caves by Obadiah so the wicked Ahab and Jezebel could not murder them. Even so, one day, they came forth ready to flow and be used by Adonai. Just like John, who came as a Voice crying in the wilderness. He came in the spirit of Elijah, the prophet.
We have Anna the prophetess in (Luke 2:36)
“And there was a prophetess, Anna, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Asher. She was advanced in years and had lived with her husband seven years after her marriage,”
A prophet named Agabus came down from Judea. (Acts 21:10).
Now there were at Antioch, in the church that was there, prophets and teachers: Barnabas, and Simeon who was called Niger, and Lucius of Cyrene, and Manaen who had been brought up with Herod, the tetrarch, and Saul. (Acts 13:1).
We need prophets and teachers.
Would you rather have spaghetti with plain tomato sauce or would fresh basil, garlic, and olive oil help the flavor?

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Paul describes what our gatherings should look like. It is a rich marinade of flavors bursting forth in unity when we apply the structure and order of a gathering or event.
“What is the outcome then, brethren? When you assemble, ‘each one’ has a psalm, has a teaching, has a revelation, has a tongue, has an interpretation. Let all things be done for edification. If anyone speaks in a tongue, it should be by two or at the most three, and each in turn, and one must interpret; but if there is no interpreter, he must keep silent in the church; and let him speak to himself and to God. Let two or three prophets speak, and let the others pass judgment. But if a revelation is made to another who is seated, the first one must keep silent. For you can all prophesy one by one, so that all may learn and all may be exhorted; and the spirits of prophets are subject to prophets; for God is not a God of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints.” (I Cor 14:26-33).
Everyone in the Body should prophesy. This is not the office of the prophet. Multiple people in the Newer Testament prophesied (both men and women). Numerous people in the Older Testament prophesied, even Saul laid naked prophesying. Moses said that he wished that all God’s people would prophesy. “Oh, that all the LORD’s people were prophets and that the LORD would put His Spirit upon them!” (Numbers 11:29).
“On the next day we left and came to Caesarea, and entering the house of Philip the evangelist, who was one of the seven, we stayed with him. Now this man had four virgin daughters who were prophetesses.” Acts 21:8-9.
But somewhere along the way, a mindset has been that prophets were getting ready to go out of style. No need to have them. No need to have daughters who can preach the good news with authority—GO HOME! Why would Philip and his wife have daughters who could prophesy if we don’t need them anymore? Are they all false today? Are all the teacher’s merely wolves in sheep’s clothing or just the office of the prophet? See how that works?
If the gifts were dying out and no longer required, why do multiple people have titles in the Newer Portion of our Bibles as Elders, Apostles, Prophets, Evangelist, and teachers?
Think outside of the boxes you’ve been taught with. Can you only unlearn some of the traditions of men? Shouldn’t we be unlearning all of them?
Let me give you some examples of how it can feel for a person with gifting to sit idle while other gifts are percolating. We all have gifts and the ability to prophesy, but some parts of the Body deemed less important may need to be relooked at.
“The eye cannot tell the hand, “I don’t need you!” or in turn the head to the feet, “I don’t need you!” 22 On the contrary, those parts of the Body that seem to be less important are indispensable. 23 Those parts of the Body that we think to be less honorable, we clothe with greater honor; and our unpresentable parts are treated with greater modesty; 24 but our presentable parts have no such need.” I Cor. 12:21-24.
Let’s say you are a writer, but you had a stroke and now cannot talk and your right side is paralyzed, and your left hand is curled up into a disfigured fist. All-day in your head, you hear poetic phrases, stories, and songs, but in your attempt to relay them to others, you have no outlet. You make grunting noises as your face contorts and people try and make sense of your words.
What if you were given paints and brushes and beautiful canvas and art supplies? You know precisely what you want to paint, and you are gifted at painting, but your hands are placed behind your back in cuffs. You sit and watch as those around you carve wood, shape clay into pots, and make glass mosaic, but you are not allowed even to open your paints. Can you say frustrating?

paint brushes on selective focus photography
Or let’s say, you are a skilled pianist and sing songs unto the Father, but no one at your gatherings has ever asked you to sing. They know you sing, but they’re not sure about you. Although you’ve been gathering with them for some time, they still do not know if you’re sincere. The Father gives you prophetic songs in the night, and you hear the melody in your ear, but at every service, they play basically the same five songs and the same person sings every week. You sit and wonder why your gift is stuck inside you. The words from Psalms and other books jump forth from your heart. You consult people about your gift, and they tell you to wait. They inform you your gift will make room for you, and it will, but people may not. Some may even explain that you may have sin or issues to deal with before a door opens. Sit on the pew and wait, they say.
Each service during worship you repent that you are sad during the worship because you long to share your gift too. You ask Father to search your heart for any signs of anger towards leadership. You pray for your gift to come forth as your belly leaps with life, but like a baby crowning that never comes forth, you go home feeling empty and yet full of LIFE just waiting to burst forth. After a long season of waiting, your baby suffocates in the womb. Does this sound harsh? It’s happening in the Body.
Perhaps your gift is Apostolic, and you can see and envision how something should be set up, but when you present it to leadership, they find you to be usurping or trying to take over. You have a vision and an outline of how to start up a youth program, but no one takes you seriously. Yes, things must be done in order but what if those in authority are missing some puzzle pieces?
I know most people think we have left the ‘church’ system, but we haven’t. A nicolatian spirit of fear is still ruling it. For more on this structure pick up a copy of Doctrines of Demons Part IIHERE.
If you are a male, speak Hebrew, or have a degree in certain areas of study, you are safer. You may get to use your gifts. If you have so many years, and Torah portions under your belt, ding ding, you may get a chance to do something. If you’ve written scholarly articles or know certain people, many times you are given more opportunities to paint, sculpt, sing, or design, but even those gifted in these areas need the fivefold. No man stands alone. No man can. No woman can.
What if your gift comes in visions, dreams, oracles, and words for people in the Body? For nations? Leaders? David knew he needed a Nathan, but teachers today who hold ministerial positions don’t?
Have we thrown out Acts two and Joel two? Why do we not allow the spirit to be poured out when He has already told us thousands of years ago to wait for the gift? That gift came on Shavuot, and I got news for some of you that mock spiritual gifts and make fun of the ministry of others, the Father is not pleased. Joseph’s brothers did the same thing to him! One may be impressed with knowledge, and we all need it–the truth does set us free, but I’ve never seen a soul broken, addicted to drugs, a death sentence, a child off in Neverland, who didn’t need ministering to by the laying on of hands and the anointing with oil. Even children know how to pray. You don’t need to be a scholar to have compassion and empathy for those suffering.
Can we find good in the gifts of one another? I see more and more people warning of “watchmen” “Prophets” dream groups, etc. Well, I have a dream group and its foundation is built on Torah. I am honored by the ministry the Father has given me even with the mockers.
I am seeing more and more people placing negative titles on leadership. I have been accused of denying the deity of Yeshua. Recently someone said the same thing about a man whose ministry I admire. Is it okay to throw things around about people without proof? People, who have doctoral degrees and years of study? Those (men and women) who have spent hours to learn Hebrew and Greek and are scholars ? Where do we think it is okay to slander a person nonchalantly in conversation? In public forums? Can we stop speaking very subtly against other teachers and ministries? Can we stop pointing out their spinach in their teeth and grab a dental floss for our own mouths? How can we be corrected without one another in a safe environment without the five-fold in place and two or three witnesses in place?

number 5 wood artwork
And further, where can young prophets go today to be adequately trained?
Where are the schools for that in this movement? They had schools for the prophets in the Book of Acts and more. I have clearly shown in this series that prophets and apostles were operating in the congregations together with the teachers/shepherds in the newer portion of our Bible’s, and we know this because their TITLES were named! Many would say, “Hush, Hush, Tekoa, you know titles are pompous” (sarcasm).
Not if the Father gives them to you and THE BODY GIVES THEM TO YOU!
“Paul, called as an apostle of Jesus Christ by the will of God” (I Cor 1:1).
Ephesians 1:1
Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God,
2 Timothy 1:1
Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God,
In the Christian world, one can find multiple “prophets and apostles,” but in the Hebrew Roots movement, no one even deems they exist. Isn’t it easy for the teachers to say we don’t need prophets today, or they don’t exist? What if the people were saying, “We don’t need teachers today?” If there are warnings in scripture for something false, shouldn’t there be the real deal as well? If people are going to warn of false prophets and apostles shouldn’t they use counter balance?
What is our foundation built on?
“So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints, and are of God’s household, having been built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus Himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole building, being fitted together, is growing into a holy temple in the Lord, in whom you also are being built together into a dwelling of God in the Spirit.” (Ephesians 2:19-22).
Let’s start building on a good foundation. Let’s start praying for the Father to help leadership see His Five-fold structure and beyond. Get out the WD40 and start spraying. It’s time for the people to start being unified.









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The Glass Blower, The Lamp Worker and The Crucible

Star of David stained glass

The aged man named Joshua stepped carefully to the first oven with his ancient tools. He wore steel-toed boots and protective glasses. He knows that synthetic garments cannot be worn here because anything made of false fibers will melt. The heat from the oven warmed his face as he continued spinning the metal rod in a circular motion. He had great vision for his work and could foresee the finished masterpiece before he ever breathed upon it.

Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you” (Jeremiah 1:5).

There were three furnaces in the hothouse where he labored. The first one is the initial furnace, inside of which is a pot (called a crucible). Like a gold jar containing manna, this crucible transforms. The sizzling pop of glass altering and shifting in flames was like a melody in his ears. He smelled a sweet aroma as smoke blew forth from the piece he was working on. The light of the fire from the furnace glimmered upon his face catching the hairs of his auburn beard as more sparks flew like fireflies.

And you came near and stood under the mountain; and the mountain burned with fire unto the midst of heaven, with darkness, clouds, and thick darkness” (Deuteronomy 4:11).

The dictionary defines the word crucible as a situation of severe trial, in which different elements interact, leading to the creation of something BRAND NEW.

The man knows those pieces of glass will join together and eventually be an object of exquisiteness. But for now, they are just ‘BROKEN’ pieces of clear glass.

crystal gemstones

You are to tell them that this is what the Lord GOD says: ‘I will take the stick of Joseph, which is in the hand of Ephraim, and the tribes of Israel associated with him, and I will put them together with the stick of Judah. I will make them into a single stick, and they will become one in My hand.’ (Ezekiel 37:19).

The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18).

He notices that his piece is beginning to take shape as he reaches inside the furnace and into the crucible and gathers another layer on the end of his blowpipe. Joshua, now, directs his attention to the table of stone, rolling his molten glass on the marver.

close up photo of gray metal handheld tool

The marver is a slab of stone upon which molten glass is rolled to give it its shape. His Father, long ago, wrote on Sapphire stone tablets with his very Finger the Words of LIFE. This Word became flesh.

All the words and symbols of the hothouse have meaning just as His Torah does. Reflect on how the Word marver is similar to marvel, “a miracle; a thing, act, or event which causes astonishment.” “Joshua is called a glass smith, gaffer, or a LAMP WORKER. A lampworker (often also called a glassblower manipulates glass with the use of a TORCH.

person holding grey lit torch

He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire (Matthew 3:11).

“In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ (Yeshua, Messiah).” (I Peter 1:6-7).

We are to be lampworkers, shining for all to see.

You are the light of the world.  “Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.” (Matthew 5:14,16).

After rolling and shaping his instrument, Joshua then heats the glass in the GLORY HOLE – all the while, in the glow of the fiery flames, he is turning the blowpipe and keeping it in constant motion.

The Glory of our Father, His Shield, His Bow, and His Strong Right Arm is shaping each of us with continuous motion, like the intensity of a dove in rapid movement fluttering over the waters. His Glory will come out of that hot hole like gold. His Glory will shine through His Creation. His Shekinah and the light of His fire is changing the elements in each of us—burning out our fleshly natures.

When He has tried me, I shall come forth as gold” (Job 23:10).

photography of cocktail glass on rack

From the Corning Museum of Glass:

How did the furnace acquire the name glory hole? “While there is no concrete answer, there are several plausible origins of this term. In an old factory, where smoke and dust were everywhere, a 2100° opening would have created an illusion, not unlike that seen in paintings of saints and angles where “The Glory” radiated from their heads. A break in the clouds where sunlight passes through is also called a glory hole.”

I could shout right now!!

“The best arrangements for annealing may be foiled, should the Glassblower unnecessarily lose time after finishing the work; as the hotter, the goods enter the arch, the better; on this account, the large goods receive a final reheating at the mouth of a pot heated by cherry-wood, and called the Glory Hole. Successful annealing depends much upon the proper direction of the wind.”

The man takes the heated glass on the blowpipe and rolls it over the colored powdered dust. He picks up pieces with each roll. He places fragments of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control onto his creation. Then, it’s back to the Glory Hole, where the colored glass is heated to melt into the clear. Again, he turns the pipe to keep the shape at the end of the pole. He takes his other hand and picks up the cherry block of wood (to bud and flower-like the almond tree) and then wet paper (Like the fresh ink of a new Torah scroll), stainless steel, and other tools to help fashion his creation. Sitting at his bench, he determines the shape of each piece with a careful eye.

Now, the actual blowing begins:

man making fire

“The wind blows where it wishes and you hear the sound of it, but do not know where it comes from and where it is going; so is everyone who is born of the Spirit (John 3:8).

He lifts the blowpipe to create a bubble and blows a puff of his Ruach HaKodesh into his vessel. He cannot blow too much at this stage, or the piece will not take shape. Then it’s back to the Glory Hole for reheating and reshaping. He walks back to his merciful bench, inspecting. He continues this over and over again until he has a vessel worthy of use.

brown clay pot

“Then I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was, making something on the wheel. But the vessel that he was making of clay was spoiled in the hand of the potter; so he remade it into another vessel, as it pleased the potter to make” (Jeremiah 18:3-4).

The man wipes the sweat from his brow and takes his creation to a punty. This is another steel pipe that’s been heating over flames. Moving the piece from the blowpipe to the punty will make it possible for the artist to create the opening of the vase or the bowl. He knows this opening will allow his vessel to hold oil. The punty (rod) will be attached to what will become the bottom of the piece.

Those who were foolish took their lamps and took no oil with them, but the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps (Matthew 25:3-4).

woman holding lantern

Eventually, the man wraps the blowpipe and snaps off the piece, breaking it away. After heating it again in the glory, he returns to his bench and uses multiple tools to open the mouth of his vessel.

“I, the LORD, am your God, Who brought you up from the land of Egypt; Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it.” (Psalm 81:10).

The blower then takes the punty and hits it firmly so that the piece drops off into a box that is filled with thick layers of fire blankets. Our Father blankets each of us and protects us from all the fiery darts of the enemy.

The man then walks to the Annealing Oven to Cool his masterpiece.

selective focus photograph of melted glass

“The function of an Annealing Oven is to perform the process of softening an object or changing other properties of the object through cycles of heating and cooling.”

The word annealing is derived from the Old English word onǣlan, which was formed from the Old English root āl, meaning “FIRE.”

The Hebrew word for fire is Esh: (Genesis 2:7)

Creator Fire maker: From the ancient Hebrew text.

 “And the fire maker formed a man of dust on the tinder, and he blew into the tinder the breath of life, and the man became a living fire.” Jeff Benner.


“Using gloves, the artist picks up the scorching-hot piece and quickly transfers it to an annealing oven. This oven is kept at 960⁰F and then cooled down over a period of 14 hours to room temperature. This slow cooling down is to prevent the piece from cracking or breaking.”

(14 is the number of Messiah).

The Lamp Lighter and Glass blower reminded me of a passage from Malachi chapter three.

“Behold, I am going to send My messenger, and he will clear the way before Me. And the Lord, whom you seek, will suddenly come to His temple; and the messenger of the covenant, in whom you delight, behold, He is coming,” says the LORD of hosts. 2 “But who can endure the day of His coming? And who can stand when He appears? For He is like a refiner’s fire and like fullers’ soap. 3 “He will sit as a smelter and purifier of silver, and He will purify the sons of Levi and refine them like gold and silver, so that they may present to the LORD offerings in righteousness. 4 “Then the offering of Judah and Jerusalem will be pleasing to the LORD as in the days of old and as in former years.”

As we venture into the crucible, the Glory hole and the KNEELING oven.

May we allow the Lamp Lighter to form us and create a vessel worthy of holding His oil and His Spirit. May we let His Ruach Breath breathe in us, and reside there. May we bless the G-d of Abraham, the G-d of Isaac, The G-d of Israel! The One who created the Universe. And may our fast go well with us to inscribe our names in His Book of LIFE.



“You are holy and Your name is holy
and those who are holy praise You
every day.
Blessed are You Adonai, the Holy G-d.”

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Stones and Leadership Part VI

person picking a black wet stone

Stones were more than likely the weapon of choice in the beginning. Cain murders his brother, Abel. Abel’s blood cries out from the ground, along with the blood of many more.

We read of those angry at the words of Yeshua and they, too, pick up stones to cast at the Chief cornerstone.

“Truly, truly, I say to you, before Abraham was born, I am.” Therefore they picked up stones to throw at Him, but Jesus hid Himself and went out of the temple.” (John 8:58-59).

The Apostle Paul is stoned, and he sees the third heavens.

“But Jews came from Antioch and Iconium, and having persuaded the crowds, they stoned Paul and dragged him out of the city, supposing that he was dead” (Acts 14:19).

After an attack on Ziglag, the wives and children of David and his men are taken captive along with all their belongings. The city is set on fire, and the Bible says the people wept until they could weep no more. Have you ever wept like that? The next thing we read is that the people are ready to stone David, their leader, over the tragedy.

Moreover, David was greatly distressed because the people spoke of stoning him, for all the people were embittered (marah, meaning bitter and disobedient), each one because of his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the LORD his God” (I Samuel 30:6).

Moses is a man who killed an Egyptian beating his people. Did he, too, use a stone? Later the people he brought out of Egypt want to stone him because they are thirsting for water.

“So Moses cried out to the LORD, saying, “What shall I do to this people? A little more and they will stone me.” (Exodus 17:4, NASB).

They wanted to stone Joshua and Caleb. These were the men who spoke life and believed that Adonai would give them the good land and destroy the giants.

But the entire congregation threatened to stone Joshua and Caleb. Then the glory of the LORD appeared to all the Israelites at the Tent of Meeting” (Numbers 14:10, BSB).

And one man named Stephen speaks truth so difficult for his audience that he is stoned to death and has a vision while being plummeted with rocks.

“When the council members heard Stephen’s speech, they were angry and furious. But Stephen was filled with the Holy Spirit. He looked toward heaven, where he saw our glorious God and Jesus standing at his right side. Then Stephen said, “I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right side of God!”

 The council members shouted and covered their ears. At once, they all attacked Stephen and dragged him out of the city. Then they started throwing stones at him.” (Acts 7:54-58, CAV).

Stoning is a legal punishment in Iran, Pakistan, northern Nigeria, Saudi Arabia, Somalia, Sudan, the United Arab Emirates, Qatar, Mauritania, and Yemen. We shudder at the thought of such a death! How barbaric. At times, women are buried with only their heads out, and they are pelted with stones until a bloody mass of unrecognizable flesh is the only thing left. Of course, that blood speaks, and so do the souls under the altar, but how many people have we thrown stones at? A friend explained it to me by using a boomerang. We may throw them, but they will come right back at us.


woman wearing blood makeup

We envision Yeshua writing in the dust after they brought a woman forward with accusations of adultery. He calmly says, He who is without sin pick up the first stone. No man can. Not then and not now.

I have been tested in this area of stones, and I have picked up stones and thrown them at those I found guilty, yet they were innocent. Have you ever done such a thing?

This is a quote I have heard all my life: “There are two sides to every story.” Robert Evans said, “There are three sides to every story: your side, my side, and the truth. And no one is lying.” I began to ponder what Cain’s side of the story was. What was King Saul’s side of the story as he hunted David every day? Contentions among leadership and fellow believers can teach us many things about ourselves. We react swiftly at times and pick up stones. Or we surmise a situation and think we know the truth about it when we don’t even know our own hearts.

Jeremiah explains that our hearts are deceitful and that we lack understanding.

“The heart is more deceitful than all else.

And is desperately sick;

Who can understand it?

“I, the Lord, search the heart,

I test the mind,

Even to give to each man according to his ways,

According to the [f]results of his deeds” (Jeremiah 17:9-10).

When we say there are two sides to every story, do we try and see our enemy’s side? Do we ask ourselves what part we had in it or what testing is being done? Take Joseph, for instance. A woman falsely accused him. But that woman was the very one that helped train him to oversee a nation during famine.

Deuteronomy 1:17 (CSB) “Do not show partiality when rendering judgment; listen to small and great alike. Do not be intimidated by anyone, for judgment belongs to God. Bring me any case too difficult for you, and I will hear it.”

Bring me any case.

I bring Cain and Abel. We read of no witnesses to the crime except YHVH, Elohim, and that is enough.

“A lone witness is not sufficient to establish any wrongdoing or sin against a man, regardless of what offense he may have committed. A matter must be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.

16If a false witness testifies against someone, accusing him of a crime, 17both parties to the dispute must stand in the presence of the LORD, before the priests and judges who are in office at that time.” (Deuteronomy 19:16-)

The scene is twin brothers in a field having a conversation.

The Father tells Cain something before he stones his brother to death.

If you do well, will not your countenance be lifted up? And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door; and its desire is for you, but you must master it.”

Mastering our sin nature takes great courage. Doing well is not always easy. David acted righteously in the face of death concerning Saul but later fell. When we go through intense battles, we scream out like David and say, ‘search me and know me!’ Show me any unclean thing in my heart. And He is faithful. We shudder at the thought of what lies hidden in the belly of the whale. If most of us were truthful, we really don’t want to see our condition. It’s like a mother who gets word that her child has been in a horrible car crash and is mangled and broken into pieces. She enters the scene and opens the hospital door in disbelief at her child’s condition. The Father wants us to look so we can become whole– healed. Bring out the things hidden and expose them to light. It’s hard to look at our bandage wounds oozing, our stiff necks in a brace, our right leg in a sling, our jaws wired shut, and yet, we must!

doctor performing operation

Ezra repented not just for himself but for a whole people.

The heart of the matter. What if we spent as much time on beautifying our insides as we do on our outward appearances?

Our beauty doesn’t come from a lack of wrinkles. Those lines are a photo of every experience imprinted on our souls. Inside every crease is a story. How quickly we forget that we are flowers. No one runs outside to a flower quickly fading and injects it or takes paint to brighten its colors that have faded in the sunlight. No one tries to wrap it next to a stick and make it stand at wilting. No, we let it die and go back to the earth from which it came. In this season of death, we often see what everyone else suffers from. We have a diagnosis and a prescription to give them, but what about us?

Cain was the first murderer. His victim was his own brother. It’s deeper and more tragic than that because now Abel’s seed is snuffed out from the earth. Cain had the opportunity to do what was right, and his whole being would have changed from anger and hostility to peace and joy, but he opted for a stone to throw at the one who had the favor of HaShem. I think we can be both Cain (Kayin) and Abel (Hevel). Do both have a story? Are there two sides? Three?

Perhaps Cain looked at his offering as good. Maybe he was shocked to find that Abba favored his brothers over his. He now goes out in the field and converses with his brother, but we don’t know what was said. The month of Elul lets us meditate on the King being in the field. He was right there in the field when the murder took place. He is close by when we do well and when we mess up.

I read an interesting article by Jeff Benner about these two men and the hidden meaning behind their names that might make you rethink what you know about the story. Two sides—three.

“In Hebrew, Cain is קין (qayin), and Abel is הבל (havel).

The word קין (qayin, from the root QN) means to acquire or possess something, which is why Eve (chavah in Hebrew) said: “I have gotten/acquired (qanah, also from the root QN) a man” (Gen 4:1). The word הבל (havel) means to be empty, often translated as vain or vanity in the sense of being empty of substance.

The Hebrew word for “name” is shem and literally means breath or character. In Hebrew thought, one’s name is reflective of one’s character, and the Hebraic meanings of the names of “Cain and Abel” are windows into their characters. Cain is a possessor, one who has substance, while Abel is empty of substance.

This may seem odd to us, because we have always assumed that Abel was the good guy and Cain the bad, but this is an oversimplification of the facts, as according to their names, a reflection of their character, Cain is what we would call “a man of character,” but Abel is “vain.” More Here

Have you ever been rewarded for bringing a good offering and then allowed vanity to creep into the point that you were boastful? Guilty! Raising my hand.

We don’t hear the conversation of these brothers. We weren’t there, and we don’t have the writings. We only have clues. Abel might have been like his name, vain—full of himself and puffed up with his favor from God over his offerings. He could have provoked Cain to the point of rage. I’m not justifying the blood on Cain’s hands, but we often only see one side of a story. The Father did not have Cain put to death. He even marks him with His tav. Cain builds a city, and he takes a wife, and his seed lives on.

Cain’s children sit around the dinner table and inquire, tell us of your brother Abel. What was he like? And what does he say at that moment? Does he describe his looks, his laughter, his shepherding skills, his passions, or his vanity and emptiness? Does he mention how his own hands became engulfed in rage, and the ground would not receive his brother’s blood but CRIED?

two people walking on brown grass field painting

Guess what David does when he is being pelted with stones?

“When King David came to Bahurim, behold, there came out from there a man of the family of the house of Saul whose name was Shimei, the son of Gera; he came out cursing continually as he came. He threw stones at David and at all the servants of King David; and all the people and all the mighty men were at his right hand and at his left. Thus Shimei said when he cursed, “Get out, get out, you man of bloodshed, and worthless fellow!  “The LORD has returned upon you all the bloodshed of the house of Saul, in whose place you have reigned; and the LORD has given the kingdom into the hand of your son Absalom. And behold, you are taken in your own evil, for you are a man of bloodshed!”

Then Abishai the son of Zeruiah said to the king, “Why should this dead dog curse my lord the king? Let me go over now and cut off his head.” But the king said, “What have I to do with you, O sons of Zeruiah? If he curses, and if the LORD has told him, ‘Curse David,’ then who shall say, ‘Why have you done so?'” Then David said to Abishai and to all his servants, “Behold, my son who came out from me seeks my life; how much more now this Benjamite? Let him alone and let him curse, for the LORD has told him.  “Perhaps the LORD will look on my affliction and return good to me instead of his cursing this day.” So David and his men went on the way; and Shimei went along on the hillside parallel with him and as he went he cursed and cast stones and threw dust at him. The king and all the people who were with him arrived weary and he refreshed himself there” ( II Samuel 16:5-14, NASB).

stone on person's hand

David knows that he has gotten too big for his britches. He had grown accustomed to favor. He killed the lion, the bear, the giant, and conquered many territories. He had been given the throne, the crown, and the anointing. He sees a woman and decides to take her for himself and have her husband put to death. The Father will look the other way; he thinks to himself. He surmises that he is above the Torah, and yet he was to write it out.

When he [the king] sits upon his royal throne, he shall write for himself two copies of this Torah on a scroll. . . . It shall be with him, and he shall read it all the days of his life” (Deuteronomy 17:18–19).
“Then the LORD said to Cain, “Where is Abel your brother?” And he said, “I do not know. Am I my brother’s keeper?” (Genesis 4:9).
What have you done?” replied the LORD. “The voice of your brother’s blood cries out to Me from the ground.…(4:10).
What have you done, Cain?

Whose baby lamb did you take David?

The Father will have His day of throwing stones. Stones play a big part in Revelations, even hailstones that weigh 100 pounds. (Revelation,16)

Revelation six tells of the sixth seal and a great earthquake. The sky splits open, and men request Stones to be thrown at them to hide them from the presence of He who sits on the throne.
15Then the kings of the earth and the great men and the commanders and the rich and the strong and every slave and free man hid themselves in the caves and among the rocks of the mountains; 16and they said to the mountains and to the rocks, “Fall on us and hide us from the presence of Him who sits on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb; 17for the great day of their wrath has come, and who is able to stand?” (Rev 6:15-17).
Who is able to stand?

“Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. 14Stand firm therefore, HAVING GIRDED YOUR LOINS WITH TRUTH, and HAVING PUT ON THE BREASTPLATE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, 15and having shod YOUR FEET WITH THE PREPARATION OF THE GOSPEL OF PEACE; 16in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17And take THE HELMET OF SALVATION, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.” (Ephesians 6:13-17, NASB).

The more I walk this out, the more i need a Savior! May we all pick up soap and not stones.



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Part III

Part IV

Part V

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